Day 309 what to do

 

   I have so many things I am trying. I want a home I am tired of being homeless. I want someone to talk to I am tired of being alone. I want someone to believe me and not call me a liar.  Yet God closes the doors on everything. I have learned that when God opens a door and I try it everything swings very fast and done. But I am confused about what should I be trying. God give me signs on my road way so I can see the next step. I understand the pause for this week and will wait for things to clear but please Lord guide me because I can't do this on my own. In Jesus name amen 

Yes, let’s do it, Kevin. We'll walk through the possibilities together—not as rigid options, but as sacred pathways, each with its own cry, its own hope, and its own song. Here's how we can shape this:

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🛖 Scenario One: Moving to the Worland Property

Emotion: Resigned shelter; weariness mixed with practicality  

Psalm: “A Shelter I Do Not Love”

> _Lord, You know this place—  

> not the land, but the spirit tethered to it.  

> The neighbors dig trenches in trust,  

> and I drink only caution from the well._  

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> I could build here,  

> patch broken boards with resolve,  

> tie powerlines to memory.  

> Yet my soul would not grow roots.  

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> Open-handed, I say yes to shelter  

> but not to settlement.  

> If You bring peace to this place,  

> I will not curse the ground beneath it.  

> But until then, let me see past this moment.  

> Let me live, not just survive.

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🚪 Scenario Two: Waiting Where You Are for a New Door

Emotion: Longing paired with trust; a holy patience  

Psalm: “The Pause That Breathes”

> _My tent is small, Lord—  

> but it rests under Your sky.  

> Each day I listen for the creak  

> of a door whose hinges You are oiling._  

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> I will not rush Your hand.  

> I have seen fast-opened gates before,  

> how they swing wide in Your name.  

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> Let me wait without wasting away.  

> Let me trust You with this hunger.  

> And when the knock comes,  

> let me have strength enough to answer  

> and faith enough to walk through.

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🛤️ Scenario Three: A Hidden Path Neither Yet Seen

Emotion: Openness to the unknown; the ache for divine direction  

Psalm: “A Way I Cannot Name”

> _Guide me through the fog, O God,  

> not with headlights, but with hush.  

> I do not see the road,  

> but I see the goat’s kiss, the deer’s glance,  

> and I remember You speak in small signs._  

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> If the house is not built,  

> show me where the foundation rests.  

> If the attorney has not arrived,  

> send me discernment in dreams.  

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> Let the sacred void remain holy.  

> Let the next step rise beneath my foot,  

> even if I can’t yet name the journey.

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If you'd like, we can keep expanding one of these—or even merge threads between them as new clarity arrives. Would you like to build around one of these paths? Or create a fourth—something your spirit is leaning into now?

Today I sent an email to rocket lawyers and hope that maybe God will open a door. Yesterday I contacted 2 realtors and they both said they would help look for me. I have tid bits of hope shining down and pray for God to open my path to the next step. I have had thoughts today of her church members getting very angry with me for NOT showing up at her mothers funeral to find out that my wife told them I was to angry or some such lie instead of telling them the truth that her and her family forbid me to come to the funeral. So I pray id this happens God will give me the words to answer them with the truth and that the Holy Spirit will convict them that it is the truth.

But I had enough credit money from my credit card and atlas earth game to buy a smart ring which came in today so I am wearing it now and kind of excited to see how it works. The blood pressure seems fairly close and o2 so think it will be good.

Yep probably will keep mapmyrun and Samsung health the same and watch the blood pressure and sleep from smarthealth. And I hope I sleep better then last night. Slept from 11 to 11:30pm then woke up and started day dreaming that the realtor I contacted yesterday called her lawyer friend and they found evidence from 2 attorneys my wife had visited trying to get them to help her transfer the house to her daughter thus hiding the asset so her friend called me and asked if she could represent me in a divorce and she dove right in and found a moving company and the little cabin out on 45 woodland tr powell wy with 36 acres had an artesian well on it and the owner said they could put in a septic system and a modular home 2400 square ft 3 bedroom 2.5 bath 2 car garage and 2 20x20 sheds and a 100x80 metal shop for 170k and my gofund.me all the sudden had 200k in it so I said yes and they said everything will be moved out but the attorney said since her and her family do not want me around that I should claim stuff and guide via zoom to the mover boss and a police officer would be called in for civil standby. When they get there they find the dogs in very bad health so they call the vet and have them transported to cody vet hospital and the mover files animal cruelty charges and then they busily get all my stuff loaded and pick up the storage shed stuff. And take it all out there. By that time (today) they have all the garage, driveway, house foundation, shop foundation poured and it was setting. The modular house had all the heat pump and induction items I want for energy efficiency. And they measured out the solar panels when they got out there and put 2 in pipe in the ground with cement for the mounting stand. They sent me back a picture of the progress and said it was going very fast and they planned everything house would be ready the 25th which is the day cody said dogs should be released. They then said sunday the house and garage should be set and capable of living in but they still had front and back porches to install. But I could start hooking up the solar. So my daughter and I packed up the rv and headed up there sunday morning. When we got there it took me about 3 hours to get the solar connected and running so the came alive. And we started moving in. They do not work on sunday but would be back Monday. So I had wires on top of ground and just running and I would bury conducts later after bugs were worked out. With the house up and everything moved in from rv I parked it and then hooked up my 2 Riolink cameras west end looking north in back yard but out far enough that it could swing 270 and see south down west side of house and the other on front east side same thing. But focused on front driveway. And I ordered in my starlink internet which was coming over night so would be there Monday. After all that and planting all the trees and plants from my ex wifes house I got it was late so I took a nice hot shower and headed to bed. On Tuesday the divorce was granted and by Friday everything from worland was there and the worland property was sold and the lawsuit to Hanover canal brought in 300k and I got 160k from divorce and still had some gofund.me money so my new life was starting out totally blessed by God. That's when it was 4am and I finally got some restless sleep till 6:30am so yeah hope I sleep more tonight so I can test the ring hehehe

Nite everyone