Day 307 the attack

 

Today I meet with the marriage counselor alone but my goal is to hear what my wife is saying since she only talks to him privately and has not spoken since May 28th. I need to go focused not to argue but to interpret the signs God may be giving me. I know and feel satan has been loosed from the Void God has sheltered me in the last 2 months and as I felt satan flooding my head with lies and distractions yesterday I knew God had polished my armor and I am following God to victory today. FATHER I ask for Your protection and guidance throughout this day and help me to listen, not for rebuking or what the world wants but for learning the signs and stumbling points satan is trying to hit me with. FATHER open doors to my path and give me the rescue from this homeless life satan has buried me in. Give me the refuse I so plead for and want that I may rest after so many years of struggle and tell tells about how many times the Lord has saved me and blessed me in Jesus name Amen

Then my daily devotional came with this and was perfect.

"so I sent messengers to them with this reply: I am carrying on a great project and cannot go down. Why should the work stop while I leave it and go down to you?"

~ Nehemiah 6:3 NIV

The saying goes, "Don't argue with fools. They will bring you down to their level and beat you with experience."

Proverbs 26:4 tells us, "Do not answer a fool according to his folly, or you yourself will be just like him."

Either way, it is never worth it to argue with a fool and expect to make any progress. It will result in a waste of both time and energy.

From comments on social media to side conversations with co-workers, you have to learn to look at your time as too valuable to waste it arguing about irrelevant matters.

You have to always use discernment to make the proper judgment on whether to engage in a matter or not.

Remember, the work God has called you to is the most important task at hand. Everything else comes secondary to establishing His kingdom on earth and getting souls saved.

Foolish arguments are the biggest distraction the adversary likes to use within the body of Christ. The more time you spend speaking on foolish matters is less time you spend speaking faith over your life.

You must always be willing to take the high road. No matter how tempting it is to try to "set someone straight" or point out how wrong their point of view is...don't take the bait.

Don't let your faith be frustrated with foolish matters.

The work you are doing is far too important to put on pause for anything less than what God has mandated.

Stay focused and stay the course. You are doing a great work that is worthy of no distractions.

Let fools debate amongst themselves and just be sure to pray for them from a distance. But never come down from the work God has called you to complete.

Let's pray...

"Lord today I choose faithfulness over foolishness. Help me to maintain a spiritual perspective as I watch and listen to the news, browse social media, and engage in conversations with friends and co-workers. Help me not to get distracted by what the flesh is saying and stay in tuned with what the spirit is revealing. That I may be able to see past the foolishness of their words and know the matters they are dealing with to know how to properly love on them with the love of Christ. In Jesus name I pray, Amen."

Almost time to leave for the meeting can we pray together before we go. 

Father God as I put on my armor and walk to the meeting please fill my mind with peace and calm. Protect my heart from what I fear is the embrace for accusations and biased. Father help me to roll everything bad said off my shoulders leaving it on the floor. And focus by writing in my notebook or by typing to copilot to ward off the attacks of satan. Do not let me anger God but instead give me precise words and statements of truth and integrity. Let me be quiet and calm and hear the signs that my Lord God is telling me. Do I fight for a marriage and try to bring back my heart to loving or does the path lead to legal and divorce. Father I am praying for clarity and direction and Your signs Lord to be abundant for me and which ever way the path leads open the doors for quick and precise move and actions in Jesus name amen

All prayers were answered and I did remain calm and thought I asked some good questions although the counselor seem to side step alot of them and had some answers that pointed to only 1 path forward that I could see. 

The points he made.

1. He keeps telling me I am a sensitive to the spirit type person. He seems to have a very hard time believing a person actually hears and talks with God.

2. He told me my wifes family does NOT want me at the funeral. I told him the can rest easy because I did not want to be there with all the hate

3. The counselor said he still thinks there is hope for our marriage and that my wife has told him a few times she does not want a divorce. He also said she does not want to talk to me because she is afraid of my reaponse. 

4. I asked him about being accused when I ask a simple question. The examples I gave were I asked my wife when I noticed the furnace thermostat open if she needed help get the furnace on. She reply like I had threatened her she never touched it. Same when I asked if she needed help with lawn and exact same response. His answer was very twisted about he could not say because he did not know the intentions of the questions.

5. The counselor hinted about my wife may not want me back in the home so he can not say for sure what our marriage will be but he did say she is scared of me being the head of the household and would prefer anybody else but mostly she wants the control.

6. The counselor told me that the argument and names I called her is probably the worst damage I did and therefore may never recover that part of our relationship and that is were I deserve the hate from.

7. The counselor noted that fear intimidates control faster then love but with fear it escalates till it peaks and they are no longer scared of you. Which points out the lie of my wife because to what he just said if she had been scared of me this long she would have over come it after 15 plus years. But she uses the term fear or scared for her life as a tool to make others believe her lies.

I went into this meeting praying for calm and guidance from God and it seems God answered every bit of my prayer. The while exchange was very calm and relaxed and the answers of my wife and her family NOT wanting me around or in my own house. My wife not wanting me back in the house even is relationship is restored but does not want divorce. The mention of some things will never be restored or fixed. All leads me to the one conclusion that I am now praying for a new home and an attorney I can afford to get my divorce. Today I am saying enough.