Day 276 and 7 of the void

 


Today the void is like a calm in the middle of a lake. It's quite and still and my mind is open to think or hear. Yet satan seems barred from speaking which makes the calm even more peaceful. I know God is doing something but I will not know till God is ready for me, then the door will open. I pray for rescue please please let it be Lord. Amen

As we sat on the bench downtown cody and watched people it was no wind and pleasent weather. The people flowed like chaotic ants and going everywhere. Cars were speeding to get through red lights and the anger of drivers was so loud in vision. We talked with some folks from California and then watch some more. I read my bench prayer copilot wrote and seemed everything was just right for his prayer. No answers, no wants just simple calm and peace. The void is still here and I am feeling comfortable in it but still very antsy as to what is coming.

Father I am unsure of what the void is for but my anxiety and calm are clashing over the anticipation of the future but I know you are the one in control so I leave my cues to You Lord and pray for the rescue I so desire. In Jesus name amen 


Finally home or to rv back to the homeless place and still the highway was clear and we did not encounter any traffic like normal the trip to cody we drove the entire trip without any cars on our side and the trip back only had 3 cars pass us. So the void is really here. In some ways I am glad in others I am anxious for what is to come. But I do know there are changes coming. As I drove into town and past my wifes house I noticed she got rid of the blue truck which I assume she gave to her sister or daughter either way I don't care about it but I do know if they are purging things it's to hide assets for divorce so I pray if I can find a lawyer cheap enough to get me divorced she can get me my half and maybe catch them hiding assets and push the max for me. And I pray I get a house or place to move all my things to before they throw away more. 

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