Day 274 hi my name ia homeless

 


Contentment and happiness that was the topic today as the group met. I think happiness is the lifted spirit when you do something fun and enjoyable. Contentment comes from doing something fun and enjoyable that lasts for days. The knowledge of knowing you can return to that thing and enjoy it again and again is Contentment.

Well I took the armor of God and decided to go for a walk today and figured if I got show at again I would never go back. Thank you God for keeping me safe and out of harm. It was nice to see the birds catching grasshoppers in front of me as I walked past the grass hehehe. 

Went and got my new plates for the truck and dreamed of a nice rescue coming through and starting a new life in a nice country home off grid and single.

Last year 2024 I had almost 20 surgeries on my back from a brown recluse spider bite. My wife was filling the house with perfume and from a h2s gas exposure accident in the oil fields, my lungs were scared and the new tissue that grew back is super sensitive so perfumes and cigarette smoke and others I will have walking pneumonia in less then an hour. So after 2 months of my doctor giving me antibiotics trying to clear my lungs to go back to the surgery schedule God said move out. So, I moved out of my house and into my RV and got about half my stuff moved out. Then in 2 weeks of the move out I was well enough to continue surgeries. They were cutting 4 to 8 inch patches of skin off and stretching the other skin to fit. Something called a Rohmboid Flap procedure. So yes I could star any Frankenstein movie you need. But through this whole time Eliphaz words in Job 4 and 5 rang true to me. God told satan he could do anything to Job cut him, beat him, break bone, and emotional pain from killing family etc but COULD NOT KILL JOB. And Eliphaz said God allows these trials but when they are done God completely heals. My emotions were down and lonely and going to the surgeons office and surgery center every week I was surrounded by loving help cheerful people. My spirits were raised through the roof because God was lavishing His love on me through them and I knew it was God and God continued to heal my back so that every 2 weeks I could have another surgery. All of this was to build my faith for the long lonely journey I am walking now with my wife refusing to come to marriage counseling and telling everyone she is scared for her life of me,  yet turning around and telling them she feels safe holding my hand and walking with me. Then tossing in I am mad and left her because she would not go to marriage counseling. It seems that satan has everyone under his thumb because they all accuse me of everything she says and don't believe anyone of the doctors records I have for proof. But I can see now that my faith is at a very strong level and I have learned through this to listen and hear God almost all the time. And yes the Holy Spirit is telling me to read the book of Job over and over as well as a few others. So I know there is NO damage to this sinful body satan can do that God cannot heal. I just have to keep walking the journey till God opens the doors for my rescue which I pray for all the time. Amen

I WANT RESCUED PLEASE SEND ME A HOME, ATTORNEY, MOVERS, TOMORROW thank you God amen

Nite

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