Day 272 I got nothing on my mind

 


The world had gone crazy and everyday someone is making news by killing, stealing, suffering, or hating, we are so caught up in sexual appeal and money that it leads us to be part of the crowd and yet we blame mental issues for it and blame others. It is satan running complete control and chaos is his key. 

Father as I wake this morning and see in the winds the making of a world of Sodom and Gamora racing to the same ends satan has made this world unfit for God's kingdom yet You Lord lead me daily into peace of mind and contentment of my heart knowing Your love is flowing into my soul. Thank you God for this and more that you do. I believe Father at this time satans rule is over run the believers and replace them with image faith and not true faith. As I continue on through my days Father protect my heart and mind and soul from all of satans attacks and temptations and let me forge on continuely speaking of Your Love Lord and touching to hearts of those ready for your harvest. I see nothing in my life will change as for my marriage and I pray that the marriage counselors eyes would be open to the truth of what my wife has and is doing and that You God would bring confessing and repentance to those that need to turn back to you and bring waste to those that mock You with fake words of faith and love. FATHER help me to discern those of the later and speak words of rebuking to them. Help me to love those You Lord stand in front of me to build and encourage in Your Kingdom. Father soon send my rescue that I would find rest in Your arms and fields to lay and dream in. In Jesus name I pray amen.

My marriage counselor is an elder at my wifes church first Baptist church of basin wy. Since the start of our sessions 10 months ago he has referred to me as "someone who is sensitive to the Holy Spirit" and tells me most people like me are Schizophrenic, I guess because they hear voices. Plain fact is I hear the Holy Spirit a lot and it is NOT Schizophrenic it's God. I get warnings, word prompting, lots of love, most of the time it comes through animals or other people but I hear Him in my mind plain and clear. Then my counselor tells me that because your wife says you're a liar and crazy we don't believe what you say. So I was telling them a few months ago when my wife was complaining about being tired I said "why don't you have the pastor stop having her babysit his grandson everyday during the week" and he replied he did not know this was happening, so the next session my wife refused to come and he explained to me that he asked her and she said she only babysits on Fridays.  So instead of try to stop it so she could be rested for marriage counseling he said that it is OK, then proceeded to go over with me that he knows I am lying because I used the word "daily" (Which I have called her for our daily calls and she has complained Mondays and Tuesdays all days of the week that she didn't get to eat lunch because she was to busy feeding his grandson) but the Holy Spirit said drop it and walk away. I sometimes get angry and complained to God that satan is allowed to feed lies to so called Christians from so called Christians and when I know the truth it is just washed away with the words "your a liar and crazy" but then we are back to the beam in my eye verse. So I trust God and walk away. Yesterday while I was walking someone shot at me 3 times. Once I heard the bullet ricochet off the ground behind me. No one around, no one to testify it happened and everyone believes I lie and am crazy. I only have God to thank for my life, protection, and guidance, strength. Without God I am nothing. Amen

Today seems not a walk day. I still feel uneasy about walking out on orchard Ave yesterday and being shot at.  so I will walk later tonight to get my steps in. Have to see what tomorrow brings but it is supposed to rain and be cold tomorrow so maybe have 2 days with little walking. But thats ok.

Ok did not go out tonight around 6pm the temperature dropped to cold something and the wind started howling and I am hunkering down for the night hehehe  going to be cold tomorrow with rain so maybe start walking Monday have to see how I feel. 


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