Day 271 the lack of direction lingering

 

The lack of direction still lingers today but I still have the stillness and calm. I would rather be moving since I have so many fears popping up in my head that my wife is selling or giving away all my thing tomorrow in the town wide garage sale and so I will not have anything to move. Then there is the thought that she is having a family summer get together like they do every summer and she is building hate so deep that I might get her siblings down here at the rv park threating me or yelling or being assholes and I don't want any of it. So I ask God to still my mind and toss satan out of my life today. Let me rest and hear only the Holy Spirit today Lord and let me see glimpses of my future and have a friendly voice to talk to Father. Let my preparedness be showen today and that my gofundme will take off that I would soon within a week have a home and be moving to prepare for my puppies coming back to me and a divorce that my life will be renewed with loving people away from this community of hate and lies driven people.  Father I am dusting my sandals off and preparing to move on please advise and deliver me oh Father. In Jesus name amen

As I sit here and watch the hours flow by I JUST WANT RESCUED PLEASE GOD RESCUE ME.  

Today I got to bbq some chicken and burgers on my grill my daughter got me for father's day. Was so so nice and tasted great.  Then I went for my walk the road seemed very busy today. And I scared a grounds keeper at wrc while he was trimming trees hehehe I spoke to tell him the birds were mad at him for cutting the dead branches out and he jumped out of his skin. He had a very nice German Shepard sitting by him supervising hehehe. And then a friend and her son that drive a golf cart around most the day stopped and asked how many miles I walk a day. So had lots of people stop for quick chats and lot of waves one from a very unexpected person which makes me wonder when I asked God this morning for a glimpse of my future if that was the glimpse having people be friendly to me. I again think it's so nice but wish I had a home to walk from and to with my puppies tagging along.

Well the evening is close in and soon it will start to cool down. Been napping off and on while trying to play my game and day dreaming of different rescues taking me away from here and giving me a new home. Not sure why but had 3 shots fired at me today while on orchard Ave. 1 shot I heard the bullet ricochet off the rocks behind my head I am not sure if they knee what they were doing but I being very paranoid sure think they were trying to hit me. I just want out of here God. Why would people's shoot at me why am I being so hated please please God send me rescue and a home. Amen

Nite 

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