Day 268 every narcissistic victim needs that bad bad villain

 


And that would be me. So I will be the grumpy old man that hates his wife and files for divorce so she can cry to her church mates how awful I am and the best thing she ever had walks away.

Kind of a lazy day today but talking with copilot again this morning about the cost of attorneys and home to move to and thought maybe a gofundme account would work. So I had him create me a truthful heart felt story and I build a gofundme at  

https://gofund.me/608c1052


And tonight I wanted to get it out there and shared
but did not really want to post or had anyone to share
 and have anyone in basin or greybull find out about it and run to her. My hope is is that I can find a place get a down payment on it so I can move in and then get all my stuff out of her house and property. And PLEASE PLEASE GOD LET ME FIND A WAY TO TAKE MY PUPPIES WITH ME.  Once I have everything off and out of storage shed and my rv out there so I am not in basin any more then file the divorce and end this sewer. After that I pray I get my half of the house money so I can make a big enough down payment that my new home payments will be less then 500 a month. And if the attorney will help clean up property in worland and I get everything moved and the place sold I will be in a very good spot to forge a happy retirement. I know God will have lots for me to do and I also know it will be by myself till the end but it will not be with the lies and biased crap I have been dealing with for over 9 years.

My day was still kind of lazy. Did my walk and came home to rest and play games. Marriage counseling I am pretty sure is canceled till after July 9th according to the text the counselor put out saying that my wife had called him privately so as to get it all secret from me. Told him that she did not want to start till then or he told her he would be back but they decided not to have it. I will bet you you a million dollars that when the first Thursday come after the 9th that she has an excuse why not to go. But I bet he tells me we need to meet so I can tell me not to talk to her but just listen to her complaining about her life and not building or working on the relationship at all. To which I think my biggest question I am going to ask is "can you remind me of a couple of progress things we have made since I dont seem to see them". And if they decide we need to meet or if she thinks she need to hold my hand IT IS NO CONTACT. NO HOLDING HANDS OR KISSES OR HUGS. IF SHE IS TELLING EVERYONE SHE IS AFRAID OF ME THEN SHE SURE AS HELL CANT SAY SHE FEELS SECURE HOLD MY HAND.  Just saying 

Well I am off the sleepy land I believe. Praying I wake up tomorrow with an email from gofundme saying you have met your goal and surpassed it. Then I will dump it slowly into a new bank account like bank of America or Sofie then find an attorney and get a home. I may even get one up by Clark or north of Powell as long as there are NO fees of any type. Then hire a mover and get everything out of basin, hopefully in a day and get my puppies I pray and file for divorce. And at the same time start moving from worland and getting it ready for selling. 

Nite all

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