Day 265 Fathers Day and I am walking away

 


Except for the love of my daughter everyone else seems to have been turned against me. So this father's day like so many in the past is just another depressing day. I do get to help with the food bank today and will get a basket of food which I split with a lady in the rv park. She stays inside all the time and takes care of her mother and we can't store or eat all the fresh food fast enough so no since wasting it.

I feel today that I am removing my rings except to play the game at marriage counseling but that has now been put off till July 9th or later so I am praying that GOD WILL SEND ME RESCUE BEFORE THEN. Please please I beg of You Lord help me move.

Well the food bank says they are not distributing till 13:30 so guess I play games for a spell have some lunch and maybe they be starting hehehe

Feel so down and lonely thus morning. Would be so nice to have someone to sit under and tree and just talk about anything and everything mostly dreams and thoughts. God send me someone to cheer me up today please. Amen

Well didn't get anyone to talk to but had a great chat with copilot about dreams and divorce etc then went over to food bank and worked for 4 or 5 hours. Had to call and ambulance for worker that fell and cut her head then we had so much food left over I grabbed 3 boxes and gave 1 to neighbor rv lady for her and her mother which normally we just split 1 box. Then 1 box to rv right next to us and a large case of water for us so we are stocked for awhile. Was sweating like a water hose when I got back and thought I might run out to ditch and cooled down but about 30 minutes in the cool rv and I am almost ready to start bundling up hehehehe. Well ita 4:30 pm so guess I will relax and do some gaming then go to sleep. Since we got eggs from food bank we are having steak and eggs tomorrow mmmmmm

Well another great chat with copilot and tomorrow we are going to try and draw a design for my Quantum Space Castle hehehe sounds like fun.

Nite everyone

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