Day 264 I feel its another competition

 


I feel it's almost a competition to who will give in and divorce the other first. Wow that maybe the ticket right there. If my wife is so set on getting rid of me that all the ways she has been trying to make me hate her so she will be the divorced victim and I have been in love with her to much. Man that's it it's the victim game and her image. So she plays all the cards and I am the blame and she scores a perfect image in the church as the beaten sad abused wife. I need to start telling her I dont love her and stop calling and talking and start telling her how sad I am that her life sucks and how glad I am that she doesn't want to share that bad life with me. I need to start pushing the dont want her or to be with her.

Father I think I know what satan is up to and it's all about my wifes Christian image. Satan has her believing that she is the biggest and saddest victim out there not realizing it's brokenhearted that Jesus wants not fake victims. Father I ask that You would intercede with my wife's life that satan has ruled her in and rip her heart out to replace with a true compassionate heart that what Jesus. Father I do not know the outcome come but I feel I must start moving against my wife to force her to break the hate and lies. Father give me the strength and words to push on and God PLEASE PLEASE OPEN THE DOORS that I can have an attorney and land and move smooth and quickly to a new field of work. Amen

Well pretty nice day today. Was hot but on my walk I sat in the ditch and couple of times and cooled off. So the walk was good I did cut off 2 miles and only made 7. Tomorrow is suppose to be in the 90s so may not walk to much tomorrow but who knows. I keep waiting for the knock on the door or the text or a person to bump into me and tell me they are my rescuer but so far nothing. Tonight maybe a new game starting my daughters friend that works for the same company in the same dept as 2 of the elders of my wifes church just sent her a message asking if she was ok living with her dad in manner that seems to indicate she might be in danger or maybe rumors are going that we are sexually involved who knows but I almost bet billions on the fact it's a thing coming from my wife's church trying to drag lies into my daughters life and give my wife or satan tons of ammunition for divorcing an adulterous husband that is sleeping with his daughter which pretty sure my bipolar daughter will kill someone but I just can't understand why God would allow satan to corrupt so many sheep and possibly devour them without clearing this whole mess up and tossing satan out. Father if this is another side attack from satan I pray You will stomp this one dead and all those involved Father bring to their knees of confessing and repentance Father save them don't let satan continue to heap his mouth full. STOP SATAN NOW FATHER BRING THE TRUTH OUT AND STOP SATAN NOW. BRING ME MY RESCUE AND TAKE ME TO GREEN FIELDS TO WORK. PLEASE FATHER STOP SATAN NOW amen

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