Day 258 should I pray for falling

 


As I am waking up this morning I am hit with the thought that maybe I should pray for my wife with her the next time and pray that God will bring her to her knees. She says she is perfect and everything must be perfect for her that is why she never has liked my gifts or me for that fact. It is also why she has so much to complain about so I guess the prayer would be Father help my wife to fall and confess her pride and perfection and believe in You as a rescue and not a equal. Help her to understand a complainer is only someone that is to good for everyone and everything around them. Bring her down to a workable clay Father that she may enjoy Your love and comfort and provisions and not complain about what satan has her sights set on. Amen

The day is over and ask I re-read the prayer I think it's pretty close. It is going on 2 weeks of no contact what so ever and the counselor is totally quite since yesterday's texted to the group that I am thinking divorce.  His reply to be patient and pray for my wife to have courage is not the problem my wife has courage other wise she wouldn't be telling so may lies in different directions thinking she will never get caught but I think God is closing some of the loops and her narcissistic victim game may he coming to a sudden stop. And I pray to God that when He stops it the other lies will come out forcing the truth and npd to the surface causing some blockage to her lies and maybe some confessing but I think the narcissistic survival mode will kick in making more lies and more miss directions and confusion but I pray God will open eyes and see what she is about and not let satan rob more sheep from the flock of Jesus. Amen

Night everyone 

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