Day 247 interesting and new

 


So last night when my wife called me back she started in with the what did you eat for lunch crap so I stopped her and asked what she did this weekend and after asking 3 times in different ways she started in with a list of errands and things she did Saturday so I asked again then what did you do Sunday which was pretty guarded but finally she said went to church while her daughter stayed home with her mother since she has never gone to church. And then she said the counselor had us scheduled for 4pm on Thursday and I told her I could not make it. I would be in cody. So then I asked her about Monday and what she did and she talked a little about staying with her mother. So I asked her about anybody she talked to over the weekend and she said no one ever calls her which is a lie. But I moved along and asked what her plans were for the week and she told me she had PT Tuesday and Thursday at 3:45pm to which I  reminded her that she would not make the 3pm meeting if she was doing PT at the same time so she said oh yes she had better tell the counselor she can't make it. Then she talked about her shoulder hurting and hopes she doesn't need surgery so I asked who told her she needs surgery. Then she said a lady at church told her she had the same thing and they had to operate on her shoulder. So when I prayed I brought up the secrets and hate that satan has built in our marriage and that I needed God’s help to bar satan from further building and to love the instruments he used and he satan. Then that my wife would wait to talk to doctors about thing instead of hearsay. Next time I  pray I need to put in open up confessing to each other for secrets and rely on each other to keep truth open rather then satan to hold secrets for us.

Made it to Cody for appointment and lunch at wy tai which was excellent. Also met with dfs for my daughter and I went for walk around park trails was nice but short. Next we have wally world then home and tomorrow we go to powell for my appointment then Thursday  back to cody for my va then daughters appointment. 

Made it home and made a lap around fairgrounds to get steps goal less then half of normal hehehe but got it in. Feeling pretty tired but call with wife was short and unfamiliar chat again although I tried to explain my lunch at wy tai which was great. So yeah there was talk about lunch but I was just trying to be open. And when I prayed I worked in the secrets and hate wall that satan built and to help us talk like adults in love instead of strangers just meeting. So praying God will put animosity between my wife and her pastor man and those she respects and talks to more then me and force her back to our marriage relationship instead of me just being someone to hate and look down on and every other man is her husband. 

So rest and road again tomorrow nite all



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