Day 246 the pit

 


Woke this morning with a question someone asked me. "How are you doing" which at the time I said doing ok and talked about the nice day. But this morning I seem to be rethinking that question with an answer more like this. 

I feel terrible, it's like I am falling into a dark pit and waiting for the bottom so that I might start clawing my way out yet the bottom never comes and I just keep falling. But I do have each day a time spent in God’s kingdom that God let's me know how much He loves me and it seems to stop the falling through that time.

So I think my prayer should be, God the things satan has done like the secret double life which blocks all communicating because of things that must be kept from me and the wall of hate that satan has built against me that will never come down I need to hate satan for these things and not the instruments satan used to accomplish them. Lord help me to ban satan and break satans hold over me and help me to find refuse in a safe place to continue working in Your kingdom God. Thank you Father for all the love and peace You show and give me for without the time you spend with me my world would be filled with darkness amen.

Also my reaponse for if I think our meetings (my wifes and mine) are going ok

Due to the lack of attentiveness and passivity "I" do not believe it will ever happen again. Now I cannot speak as for God's plans because I do know what ever God has planned will be done.


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