Day 245 will I be homeless fir the rest of my life.

 


So what became of those satan took from Job? Were they already gone with sin or did satan take good people to temp Job. Guess it's read a book of the Bible day hehehehe 

The walk was good today saw lots of Jesus's live from everywhere from a kiss by a goat to a peacock yelping at me to the storms rolling in here's a pref picture history 






Yep lots of love from God and makes me feel great to receive so much blessings. But then back to the RV hehehehe its still fun as I sit and think how much God loves me that I would rather play games and enjoy instead of dwell on marriage and life so guess thats what I will do hehehe

Well the evening came and life sucks again. My wife made no attempt to contact me but yes this is her no contact day because she spends it with her pastor boy. So yeah it kind of eats at me but I am getting so kalased about her that it is more of a relief when I don't have to deal with her then when I do. But then I got a message from Google maps wanting a description of a place I ate and so I asked my daughter for some help and she said haven't a clue say whatever you want to say and I kind of got cranky because that is what my wife says all the time and I said I am asking for your help I need help describing this place and then she starts in to the wounded act and says she is sorry then runs off to bed. Now its official this life SUCKS. I am just so tired of hate and hate and hate and hate and hate I just want to be left alone. I wish my nanobots where here and I could move to a secluded home and nobody would find me. PLEASE PLEASE PLEA SEE E PLEASE A MILLION TIMES GOD HELP ME I WANT OUT OF THIS SEWER. YOU SAY YOU HATE EVIL AND SIN AND YOU KNOW THE LIES MY WIFE TELLS AND THE WAY SHE TREATS ME AND YET YOU DO NOTHING YOU KNOW HOW WRONG THW PEOPLE ARE THAT ACCUSING ME OF SHIT YET YOU DO NOTH I NOTHING GET ME OUT OF HERE YOU SAY YOU ALWAYS HAVE A WAY TO ESCAPE WHERE IS IT BECAUSE I AM STABED THROUGH THE HEART SO MUCH SATAN IS CARRYING ME AROUND LINE A PIG FOR DINNER. WHEN WILL YOU HELP ME GOD WHEM WILL YOU HELP ME



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