Day 228 so so lost today

 


It's 4am and I am so afraid of marriage counseling today. I know if it happens I need to go because God says to show up and He will protect me and guide me but I know its going to be a blood bath fight with satan I can just feel it in my bones and I so badly badly want it over. 

Father God I pray today that you walk in front of me today clear the path and protect me from all the lies and keep my as your child. Feel my heart Lord with Your love and peace and show me the path I need to walk on to get through the fire I am about to walk into. Only from Your power God will I walk out the other side alive and I pray Father that Your love will carry me through it. Stop the lying tounge of satan in all people today Father and instead make the truth be spoken and the past truth of lies covering lies may come forth today Lord. This I pray in Jesus name amen


"If the Lord had not been on our side— let Israel say— if the Lord had not been on our side when people attacked us, they would have swallowed us alive when their anger flared against us; the flood would have engulfed us, the torrent would have swept over us, the raging waters would have swept us away. Praise be to the Lord, who has not let us be torn by their teeth. We have escaped like a bird from the fowler’s snare; the snare has been broken, and we have escaped. Our help is in the name of the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth "

~ Psalm 124 NIV


Glory be to God for His protection!

I want you to meditate on this scripture. Make it personal. Read it out loud at least 3 times today: before you start your day, lunch break, and after dinner.

I am a personal witness that when times get tough God doesn’t step out on us. He doesn’t clog His ears to our cry for help.

He does the exact opposite.

He steps in and shields us from the attack of our enemies (both spiritual and physical).

Today, right in the middle of your circumstance call on the Lord. All the help we need is in His name.

Let's pray...

"Bless the name of Jesus! There is so much power in that name. It is because of you Father, that I can stand boldly in front of my adversaries and proclaim victory. Lord, for those going through, let this scripture be a reminder that our trials always end with victory in our hands. There is no man that can take away the blessings you have bestowed to us. With endurance and faith, I press towards the promise that you have preserved for me. Knowing that my journey is down a shielded path. Though I may stumble and fall, through my help in you I will be able to rise and run again. Thank you Jesus! Amen.”

So ready this twice while waiting on marriage counselor and then my wife didn't show up and so we had a nice chat and talked a little on the walks with my wife but at least there was no blaming or belittling so when I walked out I can only glorify God for answered prayer. 

Took the long walk home and killed a rattlesnake on the way. But was a nice walk and got about 5 miles in for the day. My wife said she could not make counseling because if sore leg and went to doctor and got xrays and medicine but she never called so I am pretty sure that I will never know what happened or what she found out etc. It will be told to everyone but me so I am not even going to push contacting her. I will let her make the next move.



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