Day 219 its stuck in my head

 


It's stuck in my head that my wife got coached yesterday for the nightly phone call. The verse she picked and the way she went through it was like it was rehearsed and walked through. And she seemed to start off with exactly what she wanted to say then got thrown a bit when I asked to read through the entire chapter of psalms 91 and pointed out that Matthew referred to it in the temping of Jesus. But maybe God is putting things in her heart for change.

Today was a fun day. Went to cody for daughters birthday and doctor. Had Japanese restaurant shiki and it is always good. Then got restocked on food and things and came home. Was really windy in cody like always but warm enough to be pleasant. Git home and had a nice call from the wife. It seems to go better when she looks up the information and leads the conversations since I told her sat she has not mentioned being to tired or busy to do anything so maybe she will start to think of doing something to maintain our relationship instead of build a wall of hate. But I am not breaking her hate wall down. That is something she is going to do completely by herself. If nobody says it's OK with them that I move in then we will never live together. I am not going back to a house were the only people that ask me for anything is the neighbors. 

But finished off the day with a walk of 2 laps around the fairgrounds to get my daily steps so now before I for get again its post time hehehe


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