Day 218 will it grow stronger?

 


It's a raining Monday and had been pouring since about 3am. So will not be walking or running today but I sure hope it stays wet enough to bring out the salamanders tonight. Go make some great video and actually let people see I am not a liar hehehe. My VA group got canceled this morning so niw I have a VA doctor video call this afternoon. 

My wife called this morning and asked if my daughter and I would like to come over and spend time since my wifes daughter is not home. I told her I would not be comfortable going someplace I am not wanted and sneaking around behind people's backs just to spend time with her. I also mentioned the perfume but she again says she can't smell it just like her car I can't ride in without a mask from the perfume. Told her since her daughter and bother both do not want me around her and her house then I will not be over there until I am openly welcomed over there. I did tell her I appreciate the offer and maybe if we want to spend time together we can meet in a neutral place. My daughter has expressed she will never want to go back there so I don't have to worry about hurting her feeling by not excepting. But it is Monday and she did take the effort to pursue the marriage so I am not sure were any of this will lead. Only GOD knows the key and what the future is. My wife has built some big tall walls of hate between me and her family and she is the only one that can undo the walls. Maybe this will start to make her see that she needs to do alot more if she is going to "Love Me" as she says she does. 

And the rain has stopped and the cold north wind blows. Just a very very quite day that will be spent resting on the couch and playing games. My VA group was canceled this morning so waiting on my VA doctor now. Said she was going to go over labs but we have already done that but maybe she talked about the HTZ not allowing calcium to purge from the body with other doctors and decided that there may be a different way but I am going to try some dandelion, lions main, and supper beets, tomorrow and see how they work.

Anyway back to the game world.

Doctors visit went well she had consulted with a oncologist in Denver and they thought discontinuing the HTZ was good idea and try losartan but I told her I would like to try some supplements first and see the fill the losartan of they don't work. Would rather find a natural way first hehehe


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