Day 212 Ways to show love

 


The new senior electric scooter. Instead of hovaround it's buzzaround hehehe. 

Today was pretty good the sun was out in full strength but the temperature was around 55 so stayed warm. The walks went nice I went for a 1.5 mile walk with my daughter and then after lunch did my 6.75 miles walk and even got 1/2 mile of it jogging at 5.25 mph heheheh think I will try to build up the jogging to 2 miles if I can. It also has made my knee feel better. 

For some reason was kind of distracted today from most of my regular day dreams etc not sure why but said some prayers for my daughters ssi and marriage counselors surgery and asked for a direction and help with people in place for which ever direction it goes. Seems the counselor has given up and makes smug comments about he doesn't hate me with a stupid smile on his face but then he says stuff like you can't give up and soon he will make me the head of the household again and it's just really unsettling and weird. It's like when the pastor is done with my wife he will give her back to me and force her to love me instead of him for awhile and I just don't feel good at all about any of it. I am praying for God to put the wall of hate between them and hate enough to force confessing about each other to cover themselves. I also pray for my puppies to be given to me and for my half of the house money and an attorney and house and movers to get me out of here in a day. 

The phone call again was short and of course she had to tell me she was uplifted by a post on Facebook about verse 1 John 3:11 which I shared with her 4 weeks ago but she kept saying she is to tired and doesn't have time to read the verses I send. Did not have much to talk about after that. Started to tell me about her mother's medical problems but I stopped her and said anything about YOU and she said no don't have anything so that ended the call. She the concluded the call by saying she might call me in the morning on her no contact day but that to feels like she's talking with her pastor daily and he I prompting her to do somethings to keep me going but not enough to break them up. I pray for God to find my death threat and bring it back just enough to get divorced and move out and get my puppies.

Well night is here again and I am heading to sleep. 


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