Day 211 let the week begin

 


AMEN 

This is so true and when I pray for protection and see God's hand on me God answers prayer. I know God has guided me through times were I needed safety and I have seen the wings of those who have covered my eyes in times of uncertainty, yet in this state of homelessness I find my failing isn't in not trusting God but more of make things happen faster and God's plan doesn't seem to be going the way I want it to go. I tend to feel like Habakkuk and say "what do you mean God that You will strengthen Babylon my enemies?" But I trust in God and know in His time things will happen and for the good. I do know from being told by the Holy Spirit that if I am complaining about God's plan at least God knows I am listening and see what God is doing.

The walk today was interesting since there was a big big black cloud chasing me down hehehe had to run the last quarter mile which really wasn't that bad and my knee feels better from running then walking hehehehe but almost got hit by lightning and then while running for rv it started to sleet and rain and what a cold mess hehehe but got my steps in.



Now back to praying for God to guide me and show me what and where to walk. Then some games and day dreaming of a home and flowers and puppies.

Well I was thinking of adding the words "Lord help me find a home I am so tired of being homeless" to my prayer with my wife tonight but the Holy Spirit erased that right before the call and so our phone call was short since she was to tired to talk this is about all that was said.

4/21/2025

What you do when you start to feel abandoned 


My wife - first is pray. Kind of at a loss at what to say. Is mostly to tired to deal with things. Does nursery Wednesday nights and babysits Aaron's grandson Fridays to help people out. 




Me - Turn to God for comfort peace and love. Turn to a substatute source like the dogs. Desiring to help others for input of value. Kind of a bandaid over the wound not a fix to the wound. I get to a stopping of the down hill by using these bandaids but again it is superficial and only patches the void and does not fix it. 

So as you can tell she seems ok with help her pastor but to tired to deal with her marriage.

Looks like more clouds coming in so maybe some rain. Kind of have to keep an eye out for the salamanders hehehe

Praying for God to walk me through this fire and lead me to where he needs me. I feel so distant from everything here now and lost that I am not sure were to turn and can only rely on God for everything.

Night everyone


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