Day 209 Where oh where are you NANOBOTS

 


The blink of an eye and my nanobots would teleport me to a new home in new mexico were I would be in the trees and away from everyone and off grid and in peace. Somewhere like this.



Would be nice in the mountains with nobody around have some nice garden spots and flowers and lawn to mow sure would be nice and all off grid with a artisan well so all the good water you need.  The day dream of a life times.

Made my walk today at 6.75 miles and knee started bothering me so took some advil tonight kind of hoping for aurora borealis tonight with all the g3+ storms hitting us. And sky is clear tonight. 

Phone call tonight was ok but ended strange. My wife seems to (and I enforce seems to) be getting the idea of trying to communicate our feelings and emotions to each other but somehow I get the sense to her it is someway to get dirt to make me feel bad especially since she kind of contributed but waits for me to say the idea and then agrees with it. And had not changed anything of what I have said or typed up. I have been typing up notes for each conversation and she had not said a word about any of it. She also had a new strange one tonight because when saying good bye she quickly said she heard something from .... and stopped there then jumped to 2 questions first was is my daughter still living with me. Which is duh. And the second is is she ok? Which all I said was yes to both but I am guessing my youngest son must have been visiting her because I am pretty sure I saw him Wednesday drive past me while I was walking. So I think he may have been over at the house satisfying her and told her some bs about my daughter but that is pure conjecture that I feel and do not know. I do know that today I realized my wife is saying she loves me but shows zero emotions or action of love is because she us trying to be heard in front of church people and trying to make me believe that she does but she just has no time or effort to be in love with me. So she says it to satisfy herself and nobody else. This all seems so fake. 

The sun has set and darkness rolls over us. I am staying up for sky viewing awhile the hit the hay.

Nig h t all

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