Day 203 When pours I am the first to get soaked.

 


It's the day after and I am thinking my daughter made plans yesterday to move out and take control of her life. It would be great if she finally got her ssd and could get her own place and vehicle to live. I am not sure though if I would remain stuck here. If that happens I may start thinking of selling everything and just take off in the rv for wherever I go. I feel so alone today and after being told I turn into someone that thinks the hates me by someone that is supposedly close to and showing my hate it's kind of hard to not think the world hates me. But oh well. Maybe Monday will be better. Who knows heck maybe today might even be better mostly because I hate to think of it getting worse. Or I guess my wife that started saying she does not believe in divorce could have filed for divorce and thats why she has started saying it.

Daily devotional prayer

"Lord, I can't thank you enough for showing me what true friendship looks like. Man is so fickle, one day they're here the next they're gone. But you remain consistent. Continually showering me with grace, mercy and love everyday. Father, you are truly the best friend I have ever had and ever will have. I love you Lord. Amen."


Amen nothing answers prayers better then God. And after this arrived in my email I knew God loves me. THANK YOU GOD.

The weather today was sunny and cold hehehe with tons of wind. I made 6+ miles today and the wind was 30 mph with gusts of 40+ which filled to sun glasses with dust and dirt twice. But with the sun out the 47 degrees felt a little bit better. Took my head phones and listened to tunes the whole way. Got back and decided to send 2 songs to my wife although I know how much she hates music so will probably get her upset that I would send that junk mostly because she is to good to listen to anything but gospel songs.  But oh well. Just another reason I  am not and never will be good enough for her because she is to perfect.

Not sure what else to say for today but still have hours before I fall asleep so maybe after gaming.

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