Day 194 The battle regroups

 


AMEN
I feel satan sharpening his swords and arrows yesterday was a day my heart felt like the attack was happening in my marriage and marriage counseling I could feel the hesitation of everyone and no one was talking (phone texts) because no one could meet then the counselor trying to setup a phone call instead git very confused and stopped texting. Within 4 hours all contact was broken off. The counselor wanted to update me about my complaint of my wife always being tired and our last session on 3-20-2025 the counselor was trying to help my wife from her constant tiredness but was a little frustrated so I suggested that she stop babysitting the pastor's grandson at the same time she is trying to care for her mother with dementia and the counselor knew nothing about this. I had stopped it back in 2023 because she was going to his house all day and not caring for her mother leaving her home alone. After our separation in 2024 they started it back up but instead it was at our house. So the counselor stated he had talked to both parties and wanted to update me during the phone call as well and since he never mentioned what needed updating my spider sense went wide because I felt satan feeling ready to slice me up. So far there has been nothing since the confusing last text from the counselor and I know God has totally protected me AGAIN like always. I just can't thank God enough for watching over me 24/7.

Today was cold, cloudy and started to snow and bit. I kind of nestled into my blankets and stayed warm. My daughter decided to do laundry and fill water jugs so yes we got all that done and by 2pm the sun was starting to pop out and warm things a bit. It was almost 40 degrees so I decided I needed to walk and took off. The neighbor got his new speakers put in his car and was nice enough to park it running behind our rv so my daughter couldn't sleep the whole 2 hours I was walking. This made for a very grouchy daughter hehehe but we got through the rest of the day. I met a very nice German Shepard on my walk he usually is finishing up husband walk when I  heading out of town. So I stopped and petted him and showed him and his master a picture of my German Shepard which I miss soooo much. And he walked beside me for a block and then met me on the other side of fairgrounds, he cut through the center and I walked around to get petted as we passed again hehehe he was great. Here is my Sarah and Shamira 






Man how I miss them. I cuddle my cap at night and pray for those two and dream of them sleeping with their heads on my shoulders. LOVE YOU GIRLS 

Well daughter over did the neck today so had to put her brace back on for pain control. It is going to take some time to get her neck built back up. 

See everyone mon yahta 

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