Day 193 star date whenever

 


Today is suppose to be marriage counseling day but my wife has been sick now for almost 2 months and the last 2 weeks has been something that has taking her ability to speak and text away. For the first six days from March 20th I texted to call and just got a quick text back fever over 100 can not talk. Then I gave up and waited for her to respond now I am to the point if thinking she might not be sick just wants me to go. And yet God says wait when the door opens then you move till then bite my tounge and wait. So waiting I will go. I was hoping my wife would say she can not make session because of illness but she has replied nothing so far and at 10:30 am when I leave for cody I will simply reply my daughter has post op appointment in cody can not make counseling this week sorry. 

Father I know this is your hand at work in my life and You Lord have always done what's best for me help me to stay strong and wait for Your signal God that I should say and do the things You Lord tell me and put in my head. Thank You God for everything AMEN 

Wow what a mind bender day. Took me all afternoon to figure out the marriage counselors text messages but there are 2 conflicting statements. He first tells me "she said she could not leave her mom today" which would mean he has spoken to her but in the last text he states "I will let her know HOPE SHE IS DOING OK" let her know the times for a phone call but the last means he is trying to say he never spoke with her and hopes she is OK. So this lie jumps out at me and he did make note that he had spoke to my wife and her pastor about babysitting his grandson and wanted to "UPDATE" me on it which my spider sense fired off the charts because all the to tired to talk, deal, love, care about me that it even got the counselor concerned. And I had told her to quit doing in back in 2023 and she got shitty mad and stopped talking and that's when she started the perfume in the house making me sick. As soon as I moved out is when she started right back up. So I feel a major major attack coming from satan on every front the church has soon.

FATHER GOD please please protect me and keep me safe. I feel the demons of satan rattling their swords and arrows and grouping in large masses. I know they are coming and feel the fire of their tounges FATHER GOD please guide me and protect. Give me the words to say so as not to fall into their snares and give me the wisdom to stay behind YOUR protection. FATHER GOD make this weekend the day my complaint and recording are found and brought back to life to stop the onslaught of satan and his forces. Keep my wifes sickness of sin showing and let those that try to protect her know they are being deceived and sold to satan. FATHER GOD deliver me to my new life and disappear with the backing of the police and may everything be kept quite and away from the flock so as to capture satan and remove him from the flock. Let them survive and my life must die to self to dissappear and renewed in a new home and place. Thank you thank you thank you GOD Almighty the true and ever lasting King of my life YOU SAVE ME ALWAYS THANK YOU GOD 

AMEN and nite

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