Day 188 I think I am giving up

 


I think I am pretty much done. I know God is telling me to wait and that is exactly what I will do for I know God will never steer me wrong but in my daily devotional today was a scripture of loving and how much God loves and I know how much we are to hate satan but never must hate those satan uses so I draws a big conflict to my heart to know how much stress and mental abuse has been delt to me by my wife and then how to I still love. But it simply means I do not deny her compassion or empathy even if we never talk or see each other again should it arise that I am confronted by her then I must seek to show her love and then leave the scene. So knowing she may have me blocked on texts or calls etc I was prompted to send a quick text stating I was praying for her and her mother to get better. Which I am pretty sure will never be read but if the Holy Spirit promts it is for God's timing and not mine.

Today starts a colder week of rain/snow and highs only in low 50s which is not to bad but wish it were back in the 80s hehehehe. 

Went for a shorter walk today just did a 2 mile route that went around the wrc and down orchard Ave to cloud peak Ave. Did a little extra which came out close to 3 miles but at least the steps were there.  It was cool only 50 degrees but the sun would pop out warm you up then hide and cool you down hehehe back and forth. Tomorrow is suppose to be colder with like 60% chance of rain or snow so may not get the walk tomorrow.

Well I did get a thank you from my wife about 4pm today for the prayers but nothing about if she or her mother are doing any better just plain thank you. So on the saga goes but not to worry I had not planned on anything and almost feared she would call tonight since we have nothing to talk about. Just the same old report of what we ate and gma has diarrhea and thats it.

Took my meds and ready for looney tunes battles.

Once again the dark has come upon me and the cool is racing in.  They are saying snow starting at midnight and changing to rain tomorrow afternoon. Yep sounds wet and cold.  Brrrrrr

Nite nite

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