Day 181 or 6 months and 1 day.

 


The day starts with anticipation of snow or rain but at the moment the sun shines forth and warmth the ground. I walked outside to remove some trash to the dumpster and the looming black of water laiden clouds to the west and north bring chills to my body. I may not walk today since my longing for warmth has increased since the temperatures have also. I would be happy in the sand with my sandworm hehehe




The was cold and wet. Went for a very short walk and got back to RV just aa it started to rain. Then the wind came up and snow and sleet and rain hehehe it was cold and miserable so I stayed inside and worked on rv for wind leaks and circulation to help keep mold down. And so far tonight it's all been really good. Wish I would have done it 2 months ago hehehe. The whole of the day was play games and day dream of finding the perfect home and enjoying my puppies. But again I must return to reality and ponder of what will happen should the death threat recording show up. I mean let's just pretend that when my wife rushed out of the house and spent the night with officer campbell to come home the next day and say it was just a drunk with a boat load of information about us making prank phone calls. And so it was just that and she never cheated on and that is why my name and the recording disappeared from all police files and any note that I had even ever been in the police station. And all these years of denieing it even happened and telling me I will never find the recording because she made sure it was completely erased and telling me over and over I am crazy and I lie and it never happened and her pastor told her to tell me everything I have said, seen, heard, or done for the last 25 years has been a fictitious fairytale lie. So that could mean it was all innocent right?

Yeah I don't think so either. But I have prayers in to God for resolution and help to find the teuth and see where God leads me. I am totally at this point trusting God to do everything because it is way out of my realm of doing.

But tonight my wife texted me to say she has a high fever and can't talk with me over the phone tonight so. The week ends with 2 out 5 days we talked. She has been sick for almost 2 months now with something or another and not sure if it's true or just a way out. With all her narcissistic characters traits it is hard to say what is truth or lies. 

So aurora borealis might be out tonight if the clouds break have about an hour till 9pm and that will be the time to start checking. Try to film them then hit the hay

See ya all tomorrow 

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