Day 180 The big 6 month mark.

 


Today marks 6 months of separation and 6 months of living in my RV. Sure wish I had a house and could get something definitive in my life but Gid is saying wait and work in the place I have you for now. I do not know what the outcome come is and think I am being prepared for either possible one but I still feel my wife's narcissistic behavior is still going to be there and the lies and cover up is still going to be there and so my trust in her is never going to come back.

Suppose to be warmer today and maybe nice for a walk. My doctor took me off my calcium supplements 4 weeks ago and I am really feeling the effects.  This weeks I have been riddled in pains and fatigue and aches.  I am so ready to get my lab test and get back on them. Having finished my gaming for the morning hahaha I am ready for some day dreaming about getting a home and my puppies and starting to do landscaping. 

The walk was nice and I found a nice aventurine stone of green shine. 


So that was fun. And got my 4.5+ walk. It was a tad cold but lots of sun to equalize it out hehehe. Got back and the private investigator I hired sent me a text that he is still working some big jobs but will hopefully have mine done by Monday. Told him I have time been trying to find this and prove it since 2017 so take care of the big jobs and mine can wait hehehe.

The sun falls into the dirt of the mountains and the darkness of night climbs upon the windows sticking like magic to everything it covers. And I at the end of 6 months am very tired and lonely. While the marriage counselor got after my wife about not showing she cares about and always saying she's to tired to deal with anything about me. Nothing has changed since 2019 so I am pretty sure Nothing will. But God says wait and so I will wait for a sign. The biggest indicator I will see is if she starts to knock down the impenetrable narcissistic wall of fear Kevin she has built but that is an action and she has done nothing action wise except start calling me after I text her to see if we can talk. If I do not text her she will not call back. Duh

Night ya all

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