Day 173 To detective or not to detective that is the questions


 It was a nice blood moon last night and got some great pictures but this one was from a live telescope in Cleveland WI so it's a keeper hehehe. I sent some to my wife but it said her phone was offline and could not receive messages which makes me think she isn't talking to me since I had such low hopes for our marriage in session yesterday or something. Maybe she is mad because the counselor spent so much time telling her she needed to treat her mother better. Either way this morning I woke up and had a thought in my head that maybe I should hire a private detective to see if they could find my missing death threat and maybe find some truth about if my wife is gaslighting me or if it is just a psychological thing that she is maybe doing (I hate to say) naturally. But yes I believe that is what I  might do.

Ok I found a site to hire pros with no cost to find out if they will do the job and to give an estimate on cost. I bet it will be pricey but try an decide if I  want the reality back or not. Sent out a long message of everything that happened that day and some of what is happening today to see if they think it can be found or not.

Yes it's cold but the sun kind of came out and so my friend from VOA came over and we talked and talked while we walked. We talked 2.5 hours and could have gone all day but thats the fun of good spiritual talking to get things off your chest and he does just that. Almost got all my steps in but still need a few more so may just walk across the street and back to make it full day hehehehe told him when he was leaving that I was checking into private investigators and if I find my reality I will let him know hehehe.

Well after some games and walking to top off the daily goal I see that the ad for investigation that said they contact you within 1 hour has not happened so now am I to wondoner if God has put a stop to it or is God doing something in the background with it. I guess it's a wait and see what God points out. 

Other wise I am heading to daydreaming and sleep 
Night all

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