Day 170 Are there traps?


 As I  lay here in the early hours and ponder are they traps God is pointing out and I am able to see them or is it really just a coincidence that all these things just happen to line up. I find it so hard to believe that satan has so many (well 3 or 4 at least) working to prove I am not a believer and all these verses that my wife and counselor seem to be pointing to the fact I am not all says they are pushing hard for a divorce and want me gone yet they play the games of marriage counseling  is working but nobody wants to attend, nobody wants to talk and nobody wants to admit any of it. 

PLEASE PLEASE GOD LET ME DISAPPEAR FROM THIS SITUATION AND MOVE TO SAFETY. LET ME SEE YOUR ARM OF STRENGHT MOVE AS IT PROTECTS ME AND CRUSHES SATAN FROM HIS DECEIT. LET ME MOVE SWIFTLY TO A PLACE OF PEACE AND REST FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND MAKE KNOWEN TO ME THE TRAPS AND SNARES OF THOSE TRYING TO PROVE I AM A NON BELIEVER. GOD CRUSH THEIR TRAPS AND BRING RATH IN THEIR LIVES TO FOIL WHAT SATAN HAS PLANNED. MAKE ME VICTORIOUS AND SILENTLY MOVE ME AWAY. BRING DOWN THIS HOUSE OF LIAR'S AND DECEITFUL PEOPLE. CRUSH THEM UNDERFOOT AND DUST ME OFF. AMEN

So today I felt the urge to put some pressure on so around 4 am I texted a bunch of scriptures to my wife dealing with deceit and satan devouring the sheep and  Christians being dishonest. Not sure what will happen since she always has an excuse of why she didn't read them but I can guarantee you she will always take what I send to her pastor friend and have him explain why I sent them which is what I am praying for so maybe it will force out some truth. I also texted back my friend from her church and told him that someone told me she wanted a divorce since 2009 (that's the first time she started telling me I need to find a new wife) and that marriage counseling is just a fact finding mission so she can get a "biblical" divorce and not smear her Christian makeup. But I questioned her tonight about being in marriage counseling this week and so far she says she plans on being there. But we will see. Its going to be interesting for sure because I am going to find out how much is getting back to them and how much they catch on to what I am truly saying.

Today was another warm great day for walking got 6 miles in. First my daughter and I walked to the deli and got fried chicken and then to the park and had a picnic then home and finished off my miles while she rested. She is doing great after her surgery and building good strength. 

See you all tomorrow.

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