Day 167 Its 9am on a Saturday.

 

The restful joy of waiting. Be it not idle kindness but working wait. So today was kind of quite and still but a tad cool. Walked to post office and got a water bill from Hanover canal on my property in worland for irrigation rights which I told their attorney back in 1994 that I was abandoning my rights and they kept billing me illegally I  pretty sure but either way I am not paying it. I am pretty sure if I sell the property they will find some legal hole to take it all back because they are the canal system and farmers have the rights to take what ever they want. 

Walked up to post office which is 1mile then went for my normal 4.5 mile walk and had a good day. Got in lots of day dreaming and then I got a text out of the blue from a friend in my wifes church. And since I have refused to talk to the marriage counselor for the last 2 weeks about my wife missing sessions and feeling that it isn't going to work. He said he wants to be an encouragement to me yet there are so many put downs about me in each session like he says at least 3 times in each session "the worst thing I have ever called my wife is childish" pointing out how bad l am cause I  called my wife worse. And "I promised my wife I would take her back if she cheated on me" which the only thing I can think of is she has told them she cheats on me but in session says she never has. That one is wide open to me and I really dont trust that statement at all. Plus he has pointed out several biblical ways my wife would be justified in divorcing me. Mostly if I become or proved to be a non believer which I know they are still trying for. Or if I join a different religion which I now know why a Jehovah witness showed up every week for a month and my wife kept asking if he was still coming over and when I told her I  hadn't seen him in a long time she got less involved in marriage counseling. So back to the text from my friend who said "sorry for not texting in so long been busy with work ..... then asked how are you and how is the marriage counseling going" now it doesn't take a full private investigator to see he was brought in to scope out me since I  am not talking to the counselor and so I replied that we have had 1 session since December so I am at a loss of what is going on. I then pointed out that I have heard my wife is telling everyone I am mad because she refuses to go to counseling and left it at that. Hoping maybe they will wonder why I would point that out. But it all seems like they are struggling for a plan and God is way ahead of them. I see so much that God is doing and everytime God says be quite and stand back there is a pause for weeks or days and then something like this happens. I seemed to be ok with what I replied and feel no brain skips when typing it so pretty sure God was ok with it or God usually makes me forget and gives me new words to type. So now there will be a pause I am sure and they will come up with a new plan to which I know God will guide me through. I just kind of wish it would end so I could either have a marriage (at this point I am not sure what Gods plan is) or finishes so I can get a place to live and move on I am so tired of being homeless.

It's kind of nice out cool but there is a cloud cover blanket rolling in so guess I will day dream and play games then sleep talk to you all tomorrow.