Day 165 50 cent Doughnuts no marriage counseling today.

 


So got a text from my wife last night saying she could not talk she was still sick. Which was Wednesday a no contact day she has said since it's a day like sunday she wants to be next to her preacher and I guess doesn't want me to contact her. But I am pretty sure it was just to let me know she really is sick so there won't be marriage counseling today. I have not heard a word for the counselor either so my guess is what she started saying to everyone is true she doesn't want marriage counseling she want marriage ending classes.  The buds were out on trees yesterday and today is snow and cold so another march kill on trees that will delay growing till July.

And sure enough the marriage counselor asked if we could get together today or tomorrow even just to touch base and within seconds my wife replied she was sick and couldn't make it. So I left it at that and finally almost 2 hours later he asked if I wanted to I go ahead and meet with him at church which I know all he cares about is making me come back to church and be friends with the preacher but thats not about to happen. So I simply replied thanks for the offer but I am meeting with someone else (Holy Spirit) so he said good for me. I am really puzzled at how this is working but I do know its God that is in control of this and I know I have asked him to break all connections between my wife and her pastor she is so intrigued with. And to either guide her to a total truth relationship with me in safety or lead me to a point of disappearing so that I can move away from this town and be out away from people with my dogs to live a life of happiness. The only thing I see at this point is a worldly piece of paperwork that says married on it but I will not have a wife or live together forever more just so she can have her house. And that is not one in body as the bible states which means it is not a Christian relationship and therefore should he terminated. 

Is getting evening and the sun will set in a few hours and cold wet chills are heading in so I think I will pile on the blankets and dream sweet dreams tonight. Did not walk today because of the wet snow and cold so I am taking a mini hibernation hehehehe

Funny note last night at the dark line on the moon you were suppose to see an x and a v I kind of think I can see them but not sure.


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