Day 164 It's early and I so wish I could get full conformation as to whats going on.

 


It's 1am and I am wide awake with all kinds of conspiracy theories racing through my head and ideas that my wife is faking sick to push me into divorce since that would make me the bad Christian and not her. I keep asking God to guide me and feel the sense to continue waiting for the time being. I sent an inquiry to a realitor for maybe getting my half of the property she is living in now since I paid 12 years of mortgage payments on the place and of divorce then I should be able to count on that money for payment on new home for members. That was Sunday and Monday is when she was sick and couls not talk so I am thinking the mice are planning because the marriage counselor has said or texted nothing since Sunday either. Are they scrambling to get assets hidden or are they moving to plan how they have me right were they want and hoping a push from just one more missed marriage counseling will make me turn sinful and divorce her. Lord help the stress go away. Give me Your comfort and peace. I beg of You Lord to move me to safety and guide me out of this trap.

My daughter woke up this morning and her neck had popped during the night and hurt real bad so we made a dash to cosy for xrays and check but God was good and answered my prayer. There was nothing wrong so we had a nice day out and she got lots of steps in since her doctor said you can't over do walking but you can under do walking. So we got about 2 miles in hehehe. All and all pretty good day as far as that but it's a no contact day and I was pretty sure I would get a text from marriage counselor asking both of us if we are still on for tomorrow but I  bet they will have canceled because of something. I feel they have me right were they want me upset enough to file for divorce so I look bad and she can be so pitied. Which if my legal counsel comes through, and they say I can get 50 percent of the house to buy new place she can have her pity and I will have a good life.

Well believe it or not my wife sent me a text saying can't talk tonight still have laryngitis to which I replied caught me off guard since its not contact Wednesday. She replied back saying still sick not going to nursery which I am sure is leading up to no marriage counseling tomorrow. I am at a total loss for thought. All I can do is leave it to God knowing that God is doing this work and it is along the answering of prayers and I will not see it until God tells me it's time for my part. Thank you Lord for all you do for me and love me so much.



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