Day 162 Did you know you can SEE the difference between God's truth and satans truth.

 

So if the church believes a lie and they make that their truth. Yet I have physically lived a totally different truth which is opposition to the church. And everyone from the church seems intent on finding faults they can claim as me lying so that they can be justified in the final step they wish to take, then is my reality a truth I should follow or a truth I should put aside to live in a false truth of what they desire me to be?

The Holy Spirit just pointed out to me that the young man that stopped by to talk about scriptures was honest and eager but when I think back to the statement my wife said in marriage counseling about "you believe them more then her church" and the counselor made note to say "my wife could seek divorce if I am found a non believer or do not attend the same church as her".  This was also brought up again when I mentioned that non believers can point out Goddly facts without knowing what they say. To which I heard the exact same statements. So since each incident both have been removed so as not to give satan the hand he desires. 

So as I (my relm of thinking) see the delay and optimism of counseling that our marriage is on track to be saved and yet nothing has changed since to beginning of counseling I am hearing the Holy Spirit says it's time to step back start forging your steps of change and be ready when the Lords scalpel start to cut. 

It was cold north wind today and the walk was brisk and fast since I took the wrong jacket. But never the less I had time to day dream my way into a new home that's totally off grid and hidden from view out in the country. My justice of marriage found out and resolved into divorce with enough money to buy a place and make no payments and life is all good because I end up with my puppies watching the sunset out a south facing picture windows in the living room. 

As I took my daughter to counseling I sat in the truck and across the street was my stepdaughters car (I think) in front of the court house it sat there the whole hour plus of my daughters session and was there when we left. But when it came time foe my phone call with my wife there was a quick call and she had a (sounded faked) squeaking voice said she came home from church Sunday with laryngitis and could not talk so I said will keep you in prays love you goodbye. She did not send a text of being sick sunday or this morning, she did not send a text about wanting a picture to cheer her up, she just coldly dismissed the call and gone. So was she sick? Was it fake and some thing else is building? I can only turn it over to God to do with what needs to be done and say please Lord give me comfort that I may know I have done what You will. Also got a text from marriage counselor asking if I was doing better which I got around noon but at 6:30pm I was prompted to reply and I said "still in the box of silence but I do know Gods love and feel His warm embrace"  why the Holy Spirit said that I  am not sure but He does and that is what matters. Thank you God for loving me and holding my hand.