Day 160 Woo-hoo its march madness.

 


Today I am feeling a change coming since I seem to be reminded over and over again that it was about 2009 when my wife started really pointing out how perfect she was and wanted her life to fit her and I was far from that grade. That was the first time she ever vocally made a scene about her food in a restaurant not being perfect and when she started telling her children things I have not said like she told one daughter " my husband said he hates your guts and everything about your life" which stopped any relationship I had with that daughter to date. So I think I am close to an end. I have sent an email to a realitor and askes if they could help me find a home with land and no neighbors hehehe so will see if they find anything to look at and hoping I can get some legal aid cheaply to make a home come real and if that starts to move then I will take it a Gods direction and is keeping me safe. I am pretty sure my wife has HIV and I know she has herpies now so my safest route would be never intimate again.  I think if I can find a place and get everything moved out of the house and storage I could file divorce and pray I get my half of the house money so I can pay for part of my home bringing payments down to affordable.

Well went through the day as mostly lazy. Didn't do very much at all and sure didn't feel like doing paperwork etc for VOA but I know it needs to get done especially the application for legal aid. If I can get free legal aid and ask some questions as to weather I can buy a house and keep it out of the marriage under separation would be nice but after my phone call tonight with my wife it's like talking to the refrigerator. I get a menu and maybe some sickness things but oh just because I have diarrhea and sore throat and cough and massive headache doesn't mean I am sick because I do not have a fever. And I went to the doctor yesterday for Medicare wellness check and nothing about all these symptoms I have. So then she gets back home or to the church and surprise the marriage counselor has emergency call to church and I have not heard a word from him since. I would think there would be some concerns if I was thinking of ending my marriage he is so sure is working well right now hahaha he has listened to so many lies he has no idea what satan is tossing next. But God still tells me just stand back and this is going to be surgical so as to remove as much cancer as needed and yet save to church. So I still impatiently wait for God to contact me but I am feeling that there is no truth in anything being said to me from my wife and the church. 

Today was a beautiful day for walking again almost 60 and I had on t-shirt and sweatpants which was nice but I think I could have been just fine in cutoffs and t-shirt and sandals Woo-hoo. Sounds like next week is going to be a lot cooler but the the week after it say back up towards 60 again. On my walk today there were some geese escaping but when I walked pasted the end of the lane they hitailed back home hehehehe. All in all great day just not productive day.





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