Dau 186 today FYI is today

 


Just wondering what the day will bring. Marriage counselor did not know about my wife babysitting her pastor's grandson all the time and was going check on it since me wife complains all the time of being so tired to care about marriage. The private investigator is waiting to hear back from the police so things are starting to come to single point. I just pray that God will have the people in place to make what he is about to do happen fast and smooth. And I pray I end up with my puppies and a new home and all my past is sold and moved.

Kind of an interesting start for the morning. Yesterday I sent that question to our marriage counselor about her pastor having her babysit his grandson and out of the blue this morning I get a text from her pastor inviting me to a taco dinner fund raiser tonight which is stupid since I dont eat after 1pm standard time and have not since 2005 so he knows I don't but I know the counselor was going to chat with him about my wife. Then about an hour later I get this text from the counselor in our marriage counseling group text so I would know what he is talking to my wife about.

I’m sorry.  I am concerned that we may be exacerbating your fatigue by having you watch over pastor grandson.  Can we have a conversation about that?  I have an appointment today from 2-3 and will be busy at the church from 5-9; but would have time for a short conversation over the next few days.  Thanks.

So again God touching me to send out things at certain times since last session he was getting bent a little about my wife always being tired and I had not thought of asking but yesterday it just popped in my thoughts when she refused counseling this week. So maybe its big play day by God and God will get all the glory no matter what happens it was God work that is happening and not mine.

Walk today was nice and warm. Good 80 degrees almost and windy although I have blisters from new sandals but tgats ok managed to walk 1.5 miles bare foot which added some help for the blisters to hehehe

Well the day ended out good and bad. Did not hear from my wife or anything more from marriage counselor so I am sure that process is undergoing a lot of scrutiny. Then someone's dogs were lose on the main street in front of rv park and when I saw one of them going to be hit by car I turned to get back inside rv and my daughter was trying to come out and I thought she was still standing in rv so when I turned she feel down the last rv step and rolled her ankle and scratched up her leg but luckily her neck brace was one and her surgery did not seem hurt. But she doubled the pain med and layed down. So it is dark thirty and I am going to sit in the dark and day dream awhile. I am kind of figuring that when my wife is well enough to talk she will text or call which I know she never will because that would show interest in saving our marriage and me and she definitely doesn't want that. But thats what I am going to tell the marriage counselor. 

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