Day 153 and did very little today.

 


Still pretty sick with pneumonia so today ai did very very little but sleep.  My lungs are feeling better and my fever is down to under 100 off and on so I believe the 3rd shot of gin or juniper berry juice got it. But still have congestion in sinus and runny nose. My wife last night started out complaining how bad her day was because she had her mother and her pastor's grandson but when I stopped talking she dropped that real quick. She seems soooo eager to make and do things to please her pastor to the extremes of exhaustion yet she is to tired to talk to me if she only has her mother there and her daughter is home helping her. I pray God will place a wall of animosity between them and form a break that will sever the entire relationship of these two. She will endure everything to please him and for go her marriage and yet the church see nothing. I can not believe how blind satan is holding this church and eating the sheep by the mouth full. LORD RAISE THE FENCE AND KILL THE WOLVES LET THE SHEPARD RESTORE HIS FLOCK.

This is late in the day and going to be short because I am wiped out. But I pray for God to love me and guide me through this trial. Amen

Well just thought I would add a last minute update since phone call with wife went kind of nice but cheese-e but she did call before I even got back to rv from walking. Cuddling up with some hot apple cider and honey for pneumonia cure and heading into the night hehehe


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