Day 147 Does too passive mean there is still Love.


 So last night I made a comment in my text to my wife that I hoped it was I used the words "love you" in a goodnight picture I texted to her since she seemed so reluctant to use the word and her reply was "I was waiting for you to say it first" so I guess that means everything in our relationship from now on will have to be me saying it first every time or she will never say it. And I guess that means if she doesn't want to say it she will revert back to the old thing of "so and so said this and thats what I'm going to do you can do what ever you want" which basically tells me she is still totally passive and does not desire anything from this marriage.

Well pretty lazy day today. Monday and Tuesday are suppose to be way colder then normal like below zero this Wednesday and Monday and Tuesday are both winter storm watch days with 2 feet or more of snow predicted so we are heading out tomorrow and spending 2 nights at cody motel.  And all 3 days are packed with fun and doctors hehehe Monday my daughter has doctor visit then Tuesday she has surgery and I have wound care in same hospital durning her surgery which worked out nice and then Wednesday I have doctor visit in am at VA clinic then we head home. Pretty sure God put it all together and is getting things taken care of but I still wonder about were I am going to end up when I finally break the homeless streak. I helped do laundry so thats all out of the way and tomorrow will pack everything up after morning doctor visit and head up to cody. The Holy Spirt seems to be impressing the thought of "the difference between passive and passion is on" which yep I see right what he is saying and my marriage is definitely not on. So why do I still feel like God's hand is on my chest saying stop and wait for the train to come past so you don't get hurt. 

Anyway loafed around and did not go for a walk today so maybe I can get some walks in while surgery and things.

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