Day 145 My island continues to get more sharks around it.

 


It's above zero this morning and feeling better as far as sleep.  The day started off good was awake by 4am because the bladder was full so ran to rest room and then played games awhile.  Hit the road at 7:30am and got to first appointment. While my daughter was in with doctor for pre-op I took a walk for 2 miles and got my steps in. She was done and sitting in waiting room long before I got back.  Then off for a nice steak and eggs breakfast and then to the parts store to get her neck brace for surgery next week. While there I signed for legal aid to help get some advice on buying a house and separation etc. I am so not sure were my marriage is going but with the lack of even likes she hasn't demonstrated I am sure it is never going to be intimate again for life. This morning she sent me a simple text that read "hope your drive to cody goes okay"  MAN  if that doesn't say I love you for valentines day I do not know what would.  Hehehehe. So on ward I got we hit walmart and got things we need and sounds like my daughter will not be on soft foods as long as we though so we did not buy to much and since the refrigerator is out we kind of bought a lot of shelf foods. It's 2pm and we are finally back home and resting. Says it's 27 degrees out so Woo-hoo I think I am going to play some games and relax and day dream of a new home and life.



Few photos from road up to cody it was melting like water hehehehe when we left cody.  Well what a wasted phone call with my wife a whole 2 minutes to tell me she doesn't have time to visit so goodbye. What crap. My daughter is in so much pain from bouncing on the rough snowy streets in cody she is sick to her stomach from pain. But 3 more days and she will have surgery and be back on pain meds. I am sooooo lonely on this day of love I just wish the truth would come out and the police would haul my wife in so I can have grounds for a complete divorce. 

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