Day 144 friends with lava

 


Minus 22 this morning and I certainly feel like staying under the blankets today that's for sure.
Not really wanting to go to marriage counseling today but if they are going to have it I guess I should be there. Will wait till about noon and send out verification text with group, wife and counselor, to see if my wife is going. I pretty much think she if going to say no but may be surprised.
I am also starting to think I may do a search of the police report in newspaper for 2017 and see if my name shows up as reporting the call.  If it does then I can get a picture of the paper and ask them why they have this but the police do not.

Well so I texted this morning to see if everyone was still on board for our marriage counseling and of course my wife said she thinks she will stay home. So 2 weeks out now. Beginning to think that not only if the communication failing and dropping off and the love is dissolving to not even knowing each other but now the desire to even try is leaving her.  I am sure that by summer my marriage will be over so might as plan on finding a home to buy and talking to legal counseling about making a new life out of this mess. 

So I felt the need to go for a walk and took off. Was a nice walk and little cold but the lamas told the whole story.


Especially with that look hehehe but yes they are wild and crazy lamas hehehehe  my knee so far feels OK and back of neck really cold and hurts but that will go away as it warms up. Marriage counselor also canceled said his son was in hospital since early this morning. I noticed that since he told us in the text group my wife was repeating everything I said hehehe.

Tomorrow is pre-op day for my daughter and get to have a neck brace fitted for after surgery. This cold just seems to be hanging in here. Wish it would warm up enough to at least melt the sidewalks off.

Man sure am day dreaming a lot of a 3 story off grid home by Clark that I get for the same amount I sell my place in worland for and get moved in, in a day and all before my daughters surgery. What a great day that would be. But oh well I just keep dreaming.

Another short call and no love what so ever.  In about 5 minutes you have repeated everything you say every night then ask if any new to talk about and after the no's you pray and hang up. I have more conversation with the squirrels then my wife.

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