Day 143 wonder wonder wonder

 


Colder yet brrrrr I think tonight will be the last night of bitter cold below zero. Looks like 2 or 3 more nights off and on over the next weeks of minus 1 or 3 but not the 22 hehehe

I drove my daughter to her appointment today and as I sat out front in my truck and looked at the news paper office I wondered if the police reports for 2017 might have my complaint in them or a prank phone call under my wife's name.  As I talked to my counselor today I told him that I do not think I would go back to the marriage if my wife continued to hide the death threat and not tell the truth. Other wise I am going back to the exact same thing I left her for.  I just keep praying God will bring this truth out and cleans this lie and make it open and clear. I know this will either end the marriage because of the truth or will strengthen it because of the truth but that is only known by God.

Did not go for a walk today and tonight is no contact not since my wife is busy helping her pastor that she pays all her attention to. My knee is still hurting but not to bad like yesterday after my walk so I think I will give it a few more days to heal. Monday I plan on heading to cody and spend Monday and Tuesday night in motel while my daughter has her surgery. Will also take shower things and clean clothes since it will be the closes we get to long hot showers for a long time again hehehe. My counselor also said I should check into the Wyoming legal program that is free or near free legal advice for low income. So I think I will run past them the idea of buying a place in another town and getting everything move there without it being part of the marriage since we are separated and then if the marriage ends I won't lose my place and should be able to get my half of the basin property to finish paying for it. 


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