Day 140 No contact day but still cold.

 


Yep it's so cold even the flamingo are ice skating.

So this bright and chilli morning finds me pondering what if things. Like what's if my wife actually starts to pay interest to me or even starts to try and communicate with me. I mean I might start to go along with it but if she never admits to the death threat call and how she constantly throws it in my face that I will never find ot because she made sure it was erased. There will never be trust and without trust I'm thinking never be intimate with her and I will desire to live alone and be married so I don't get involved. But then I have the thinking that if the recording came back and she was found to have sex for bribery to get officer campbell to erased it the she might not be living with me either. So with everyone fooled into her lies all I can do right now is exactly what God has said all along "work in the field I have put you in and wait for the sign I have told you about"  so working I go.

The sun was out but still cooold I got my walk in and made my 4 week straight badge which was kind of nice. But it looks like below zero all week. Today is no contact sunday so nothing to think on tonight but I do wonder why squirrels are fascinated by pushups. 


This guy made sure I did them all hehehe. But today our refrigerator quit so tossed all the freezer things in the truck for the night so they freeze again. Kind of thinking there is to much moisture behind the fridge and the below zero Temps has frozen the sensor. Won't know for sure till we get some 35 degree days. But it's dark and cold so I think I will turn in....

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