Day 133 Ever wonder if you could fill a room with mouse traps, look at it turn off the lights and walk through barefooted?

 


  It was a cold  cloudy day in February and the thoughts of snow lumed in the day outside. Hehehehehe well playing my game and it seems there might be a change working. I have been praying for strife and blocking of communication between my wife and her pastor because by getting her attention off him and letting her see how badly he has been using her as well as others maybe she will move towards her marriage. Then after all these months of don't contact her on sundays or Wednesdays she called this morning to tell me she was getting ready for church and wanted to say good morning and hope I have a good day also. This is nice and I know it's a sign from God that He is working but I also seem to have caution grabbing me because of the statement she made after marriage counseling about do I think I will ever return to her church. I told her it depends because some people are saying restoring my relationship with the church would save our marriage which is not biblical but biblically since marriage was the first and most important to God, saving our marriage would restore my relationship with her church. And she quickly asked "who said that" to which I replied who is not important doctrine is. But I listened as the marriage counselor got after her about being totally passive and praying, communication etc seems he caught on fast to what was really happening. But I again plead with you Lord to put a massive wall of strife between my wife and those that hold her attention and interests  open her eyes to the worldly ways in which they use her and inspire her to demolish the wall of hate and lies she has built between us. 

Well the day continues and I made my walk. Got my Samsung health badge for 3 weeks of straight step goals being met. And a badge for 2 weeks of 150 pushups a day. I bumped it up to 180 pushups 5 days ago so after finding I could handle it I changed my app to count 60 hehehehe.  Also made a new friend that ran to the fence and waited while I walked 1/2 mile to get to him and pet him hehehehe 


It was around 40 degrees but cloudy so chilli. 

Then around 5pm I sent a text to my wife telling her I hope its ok if I send her a text since it was no contact day.  And she relied back real quick that she won't answer because she came home with fever of 101 from church. Which now I don't know if she is busy with someone else and doesn't want to be disturbed or if she is really sick. Grrr

Back to pleading with you Lord that you will put strife and blocking the things that she pays more attention to them her marriage and help her to turn and be desperate enough to tear down the wall of lies and hate she has built between us.

Well on with the night and hoping to sleep longer then 3 hours tonight hehehehe just waiting for the 2 feet of snow and below zero Temps that are suppose to be here now hehehe



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