New idea to fight the lonely

So I was thinking what could I do to fight the loneliness that has gripped my life. I guess I should first give a little background to get to this spot. I have been married for 25 years and the last 7 have been the worst years of my life. Important Note here back in the 1990s I was caught in a oil field accident with H2S gas and burned my lungs inside. Since then the new tissue (and this is pure speculation) is very sensitive to perfumes with phiaramones or cigarette smoke etc. Within 2 hours of being exposed I will have pneumonia within a day my lungs with be filling up. But cleaning products dont seem to effect me not sure why. Anyway on with the show, my wife and I started drifting apart back in 2015 she seemed more interested in other men and social media then me. By 2017 we had stopped talking except every time she would tell me, I bought her a gift she did not like it or that I would  suggest something and some guy told her to do this instead and that is what she will do and I can do what ever I want. Don't get me wrong this silence and ignoring drove me batty and I would raise my voice and call her names and get pissed because from a very early age I learned that's how I get attention. I am not abusive or would never hit except in self defense but yell and call names yep I can do that. We in 2023 she started trying to do everything she could to make the pastor of our church notice her and be around her. He would say how much he needs help in the nursery and presto she was there every chance she could. She is also taking care of her mother and so all I heard is how tired she is yet she has time to work nursery and even spend the day at the pastor house babysitting his grandson then over and over she is just so tired and does not want to deal with me. Back in 2017 or 2016 I got a phone call voice message from some guy telling me he was my wife's lover and he was going to kill me. And he gave all kinds of details like mine and wife's date of birth, phone, work hours, work phones, routes we take to work, etc. Soo i took it to the police and filed a complaint. They told me which town the phone number was in (the one in which we live) and said they would send a copy there as well. Later that night after dark my wife says she needed to go see this certain officer because only her and him could take care of MY complaint. She came home after a long period and said it was just a drunk making prank calls. I then found out the recording and complaint, everything was gone from all police files. In 2023 I asked if she would do marriage counseling and she said "I will only talk to the pastor and you can do what ever you want" to which she did start having private sessions with him every week for 2 years now and I was not involved. In 2024 I got bit by a brown recluse spider on my back and it started a wound that was by July growing 1 inch every week. They said they needed to surgically remove it. My wife and step daughter started flooding the house with perfumes and I spent July and August at the doctors trying to get rid of pneumonia and clear my lungs so I could be put under. With no choice I moved out of the house and down to the local rv park and within 2 weeks I was clear enough to get surgery. Well that started surgeries every 2 week till December 3 2024. Lots of cutting and 2 rohmboid flaps and my back was a picture of Frankenstein. I then got infection in a suture point and it turned bad and then my entire back started producing water under the skin so they started draining that as of January 7 2025 they think in 2 weeks it will be dry enough to start skin grafts and I just might be done. Now don't get me wrong the surgery stinks but the medical staff was the best part of all this because I had someone to talk to every week and was showered with love and kindness which makes a lonely homeless person very happy. In October I did FINALLY talk my wife into seeing a licensed professional counselor for marriage and she said only if they go to her church and presto one moved in from California so we started counseling together and they have accused me of everything even trying to kill my wife because she weeped and cried that she is in fear for her life 24/7 from me. So now where ever I go in this small town of 1400 I am met with hate and snarls from people that think I am a monster I guess. I did have one last argument with my wife and she told me the pastor told her to tell me everything i have said, done, thought for the laat 24 years is a fairytale lie I made up. AND THEN she finished with "you will never find the recording of the death threat I made sure of that"  so here I am living in the cold Wyoming winter in an rv praying for a home to move into some day and then one of my VA counselors asked me "what would be the tipping point that you would walk away from your marriage?"  That hit hard mmmm and why. Well I replied if everything like the police files would come back and prove I am not lying or crazy I would walk away. I still think alot about it but I believe it's because I would have my integrity back. I don't care about revenge or justice or something bad happening to her but I feel if I was proven to be right I could stand a little taller and not be hated so much. So I walk 3 to 6 miles a day and play games on my phone because lonely guys this old do not have much else to do. Thanks for the ear.