Day 129 Surviving is not the problem, doing is.

 

I could stand outside and survive but I would be doing nothing. I know God has things I should be doing but they seem jumbled by my needs of companionship and being wanted. It is hard to stand outside a wall someone has built against you and survive, knowing that it's their wall and as MC Hammer says can't touch this hehehe. So to be doing. I know over and over God has told me to work in the field He has placed me and wait for the sign He told me about. Yet the field is so big and nobody else is here to work alongside of. This is going to be a tough day I can tell.

 Took a shower today and of course inspector socks had to check the shower out when I finished hehehe changed my bandage on back and one of the men from my wife's church showed up so I got to explain everything thats going on and why I moved out because of the perfume but they needed computer help so will try to get them set up. It was nice to have that so I know God is showing me something but I'm not sure what yet because this could point different directions.  Like say maybe the truth is getting out and it could force my wife to start dismantling the wall of hate and lies she has built oooorrr it could mean the truth is going to come out and I will get a solid goal of change to walk towards. Just not sure yet. 

Today was almost 45 degrees and people were out running while I was walking. Others were walking but plenty of people enjoying the outdoors. I did not see any sign of Mr Goose dead or alive so I am praying that he was good enough to fly and headed out. But on my final pushups I had a referee watching me hehehe.

Yep he was about 10 feet above me in a tree and pretty sure I heard him counting with me to make sure I did 60 hehehehe. 

My neighbor lady brought over chocolate bars again. We get a box of food from the food bank and the amount of vegetables in the box will good bad before we can eat it all. So I take half of it over to her and her mother. I tell her it's free food so she doesn't have to pay me back for it, so she has settled on a large chocolate bar to pay me with hehehehe.  

Our neighbor to the west of us has just been released from prison and is a really nice guy. He lives with his sister and they are buying the rv trailer from the park owner. Then when they get this one paid for he is going to get another one for himself. But the jerk on the east side of us slams doors and lids and everything all day long up until like 8pm and so west neighbor can't handle because it brings back PTSD of jail doors slamming so he asked if it was ok with us if he kept his tv a little louder all night. Which is a YES hehehe the park owner has said he thinks he is going to ask the east neighbor to leave and I hope he does because he keeps trying to park in my spot and gets real pissed when in slide in about 3 inchs away from his car door so he has to crawl over from the passenger side to move his car. Been hoping he might like to argue a bit but he just looks at me and runs back in his rv. And he is about 7 to 9 inchs taller then me. But I have confronted him quietly twice when he started following my daughter around and he spins and heads off really fast. And once when he was following the owners granddaughter who is on the east side of him. Would be good to have him gone.

Lots of day dreaming today about getting a real nice off grid house that nobody wants because of the hate for renewable energy here in Wyoming and we get it for around 50,000.00 and move in and get a moving company to help and have everything from my wife's house and storage there in 1 day and I get my puppies and life starts to get good again. But like I said strictly day dream hehehe

There was a massive hole in the sun today about 500,000 miles across which is equal to 62 earth's hehehe and so they never said the g level of solar flares it is shooting at us but I  think it looks like a Muppet hehehe but yes it does look angry also.