Day 126 Confusion is the best whom

 


Below zero again and chilled through and through hehehe by Friday the highs around 40 then next week back down to zero. It's so hard to warm up and planet when the polar swirl keeps dipping down.  But the sun is out. 

Today my mind seems to be blank. Trying to think of pictures for AI to draw and nothing comes in. It's also in my thinking of thing like life and tomorrow and my wife etc everything just seems to go blank. Guess my mind is taking a break. I am curious to see if Mr Goose spent another night at the fairgrounds so looking forward to that on the walk. But it's not suppose to be as warm as yesterday so going to be tad cold. 

 I find myself extremely heavy on thinking of divorce and moving but still wondering if God needs me to keep trying. I am praying to you God for you to show me Your will in my life, let me see where I am heading in Your plan that I might stay true on the path. There are so many things I cannot see and deal with so I am lost in a sea of confusion so God as I go through this week help me understand what it is I shoild be doing and guide my tounge and mind in you will. Amen

The walk was again chilled and Mr Goose is still there at the camp site. I think tonight I am going to pop up a bag of popcorn and run over to him just in case he is wounded. Better take a pocket knife just in case of plastic rings or something like that. But I managed 5.5 miles and all 180 pushups so was good workout.


Got some popcorn over to Mr Goose and he was hiding so I put it in his day time spot. Tomorrow I have wound care so will have to check on him in afternoon when I get back. I am still blank on mind it seems and just day dreaming of a place to live opening up I can afford and moving tomorrow when I get back. Man I wish it would come to be.

Well early day starts tomorrow have 3 appointments starting at 9 and ending at noon in cody then restock some food.  So it's sign off time.

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