Day 119 It's below the zero mark

 


It's below zero barely like -2 which isnt to bad. Tonight is suppose to be -20 so getting the worst tonight then slowly warm up to 20s high and single digits low. Was really hoping to wake up to my nanobots telling me my house was built and they would teleport me and all the things stored around  to there. But nope not yet if they are working it's taking them some time to get it done. It almost noon and 6 degrees I think I will warm up my feet under the blanket for a bit then toss on the cold gear and head out for a walk. Slightly snowing but nothing bad and I kind of have the RV furnace set to come on when RV is down to 60 and warm it up to like 68 and that cycle durning the day is like every 2 hours about.  Which should make the propane last a few days. Still thinking of all kinds of different things for what is happening. Today is one of her no contact days and I have told myself if she says she is tired we are done talking and for 3 days now I have asked over and over about her not her mom so last night she never said she was tired and I asked her some simple questions like what did you have for breakfast and lunch, it took a couple of times but she finally answered me. But as soon as I asked if there was anything she wanted to talk about it closed down to witness protection answers and I  called it a night. I am just feeling emotions from all different angles and some say I am just being strung along, another says this is as good as it will ever be and her attention and focus will be on others, a slim chance tells me she might try to dismantle the wall of hate she has built with lies and it will work. Then there's the side that says why sit in the RV and wait just cut and run. Divorce her get the money from my half of the house and move. Or somebody introduces themselves to me and wants to start something for the rest of my life that will be what I want and says let's go. So maybe my mind is only going 5 different emotional directions so far but I bet there are some others in there that come and go by the minute. Dressed warm for my walk and yes it was 9 degrees outside so the sun came out through the snow that was falling and was warm enough I had start unzipping my coat. Managed to get over 4 miles today and 150 pushups so was a great walk day. When I got back to the RV my friends showed up and were ready to talk about bible verses and we had a great talk over Genesis 3:15 which was the first prophecy God gave about Jesus. Then we discussed some more and talked about different bibles and when they were used throughout the crusades and it was just fun talking. So now back in the RV and ready to play games. Tonight is suppose to be the coldest night at around -20 so then we start warming up from there. Tomorrow is wound care day in cody and I am hoping the truck starts up. V8s are tough turning over in cold cold. So if it does then the roads are pretty icy which means it is going to be long cold day so here is praying everything works tomorrow hehehe.

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