Day 118 LEAD the killer we love.

 

Oh the nights show so much more of God's creation then day. In the sun we see the earth, dirt everything around us in a fallen world yet at night we see the stars and planets that are untouched by sin. We see the unlimited glory of God. I almost every night stand and stare at the sky just to realize how small I am and God still loves me.

Zephaniah 3:17 ESV 

The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.

1 John 3:1 ESV

See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him.

Jeremiah 31:3 ESV 

The Lord appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.

Rom 8:37-39 

Darby 37 But in all these things we more than conquer through him that has loved us. 38 For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

These are some of my favorite verses when I am feeling lonely because I may feel lonely only because I am doubting God's love for me. Managed to sleep pretty good last night got about 4 hours and no shadows waking me. Had a pretty weird dream last night. I do not eat after 1pm for medication purposes and haven't since 2002 sad thing I started it to make my medication more effective and within a year I was off the medication hehehe. But anyway I was dreaming the marriage counselor setup a valentine DINNER and since he seems to think my wife is in danger if left alone with me they had it at the church with several of the elders. And when they found out I would not eat they were majorly disappointed in me but tried to press on. Then they told my wife she should get up and dance with me and like she has our entire marriage refused because SHE does not dance. But then the pastor asked her and she jumped up and grabbed his hand and started out on the floor and the marriage counselor seemed a bit upset and started telling my wife "you just said you don't dance and refused to dance with your husband" Now you act like this. Well while this was escalating I grabbed my coat and snuck out the back door of the gym and walked away from a very disheartening counseling deal.  So today is looking really good for walk and my daughter wants to try and make a mile every day so we are on the walk. Tomorrow they are forecasting low of minus 7 so looking at a coooold weekend but looks like God has kept me and my daughter really comfortable thus winter even where we are located. I praise God for his love. Went for my walk today and it was around 40 degrees and there were 2 men I passed walking my paths hehehe good to see that maybe I am making and influence. Got a talking to by land lord about using electricity to heat with since his bill is so high so guess I need to get the propane set back up. Man I soooo wish for a place of my own and yes that would mean bills but I could change those to solar and wind to be next to nothing.  Had my call which seemed a bit different but since I jumped off Tuesday as soon as she started yawning and told her she must be to tired she didn't talk about tired tonight. But she talked about being sick. I guess her church is about 75% down with rsv and so she thinks leaving her mother home she won't get sick. Then she says the pastor's grandson she babysittes in the home didn't come over because they are all sick with the rsv but she thinks they will bring him over tomorrow but her mom is safe because he is never closer then 5 feet from her and just because she holds him and then touches her mom her mom can't catch anything. I gave up trying to remind her of the 72 hour rule the hospital beat into us when we worked there which was "your are contagious 72 hours minimum after your last sign of symptoms" wash your hands every hour regardless and she doesn't care so I was done. Then I bought a garden hose water filter for RVs and took my short hose and ran over to the water spicket and filled up 3 gals of water so will taste it tomorrow but it says it removes 97% chlorine and 95% lead and knowing that only one grade of gas does not have lead which is 85 obtain the higher ones all need lead still and the findings of how much lead is in our vegetables from soil like 110% over the FDA safe limit I do not care about global warming. We went through all the mental damage lead does to the human body so we got rid of paint and supposed gas hahaha and yet 110% that just scares the heck out of me so any time I can remove lead DO IT. I am even looking at labels in the grocery stores and finding out the places they buy from then checking how they grow. Any greenhouse that grows for sale and floats the vegetables on water trays is using filtered water which drops your lead consumption over 110% but if the grow in soil NO THANK YOU.