Day 115 the shallow end of the pool is always the fullest.

 

Been awake almost alright think I fell to sleep from 4 to 5:20 so tired this morning. Had group counseling with VA this morning which went well but got me thinking of mybwalk away point and was thinking I do not believe my walking away from marriage if the death threat was found would be a revenge thing. I believe it would point out that I was telling the truth and that she lied and deceived everyone but more the call makes sure I knew he was her lover and she wanted me dead. Which would mean all this blame she is casting on me for the failed marriage would shift and I could divorce her with peace of mind knowing mine is still intact. Anyway have a long drive to cody for wound care and check to see how close I am to ready for skin graft. Then back home for another great phone call with the wife as she tells me how bad her 90 year old mother hurts her by hitting her with her walker and stepping on her toes. I am almost expecting to hear her say she is in fear for her life from her mother now that I am no longer there hehehe. The weather so far is good and I am glad, my daughter has to walk to her appointment here while I am in cody and she has a very bad back and neck. Guess I start charging phone and get ready to go. So a note on the pool when you look at people groups and flow you notice that the daily busy bodies seem to move fast and everywhere splashing around with very little thought while those that tend to sit on the side and think deep thoughts are always in two's or three's and few around so the shallow end is always fullest. Got to wound care and had a new nurse. She asked how I got my wound and so I started in with the bite of a brown recluse but had to explain why I get pneumonia from perfumes after a h2s gas accident in the oil field and the scorpion sting and being hit twice now while riding my bicycle although the first time when I was 10. I do not have memories for almost 1.5 years after that one. But through all of this and the surgeries every 2 weeks since June 2024 on my back I feel so blessed that God would do this because that ment in this time of lonely God kept me in the hands weekly of loving caring people so I never felt homeless. Now that it's winding down and working on growing new tissue to finish closing up my back I find I am more alone now. I got home late around 3:30pm and still needed some steps so went for a 3.26 miles walk and finished off the day with someone gaming. They are saying Saturday is below zero for a spell so breaking out the backup heater hehehe.