Day 114 No the nanobots didn't show up

 











So awake most of the night since 1am got to sleep around 11pm and now its almost 5am. My nanobots didn't come alive and build me a house to move into and the police never showed up to say they found the recording of my death threat. The wind just came up and is howling outside the RV so I am betting its starting to snow and get coooold. Thinking I may challenge the cold and snow and run across the parking lot for a shower today. I have wound care tomorrow so if water gets on my back and messes up the bandage I will only need a temporary bandage till monday. So much to think about and so many things to dream for yet what is it all for but a process of passing time so we can look back to say we thought today therefore we are. That sounds real sci-fi type stuff hehehe guess I will toss and turn for couple hours and cook breakfast. After a good breakfast I have done the dishes and waiting on church services to start. Today is my 24 wedding anniversary as if that makes a difference because it sunday and my wife has said sunday and Wednesday (the days she spends at church with her pastor) she does not want me to contact her so this year I give my happy from my anniversary to the Texas screw worms may they eat it in peace. I continue to cry out to God why can't I have my dignity? I know what I have lived and done yet my wife continues to lie and make me a crazy abusive thing that is not true. When will God hear my pleas and bring forth the truth that she is covering. Please please oh God of my life deliver me from this place and instill your love in my heart. Got some clean on so they should like me better tomorrow at wound care went for my walk today and on my back to the RV and sheriff truck zipped into the fairgrounds right in front of me at a put 20+ miles per hour then spins around and after I walk past the drive entrance he whips back out on main st and heads north. I AM STARTING TO GET REAL PARANOID. 2 days ago someone in a gold dodge neon sat and watched me walk about 2 miles even while I had to walk back past them and they just stared. License plate was 9-13435 wyo in case you want to know. Made 3.26 miles today. Well that was good had a young man named Leon that has been stopping by to talk about the bible and today he stopped by again. Was a very pleasant chat and challenged me to dig into scriptures hehehe.  Finished the day out with some phone gaming then found they have a fresh water tap over in fairgrounds with frost free hydrant so ran a couple of jugs over and filled them up which is way better then using the only hot water tap in RV park. Now I guess I will wait till 9pm or so and turn the lights out and watch the ceiling till the sun comes up. 

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