What is my life worth

  This morning i am tired and wanting. My mind hurts from the gaslighting and I am tired from waiting and praying. Today it seems that no matter the cost I would have Jesus cut me free. Swing the sword God and make the final slice complete. End the torture of this exile and even if its just a rv spot in a camp ground I can afford put me there. I feel so hopeless today and lack any sight into restoration. Guide me to home Lord and away from the Ash Pit.  Father this morning I pray from this verse you gave my in the daily devotional email the day after I signed my divorce papers on May 5th 2025. Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household. ~ Matthew 10:34-36 NIV Father I see the battle and have been blessed to see the signs and communicat...

  I forgot to close put my blog last night so closed it this morning and then started today's. Daily devotional email was about all those that will be blessed by my prayers for them even though I will not know it. Which echoed Job 42:10. Then I got another email of ads from cody veterinary hospital which echoes my reunion with Shamira and Sarah. I just pray all these signs and communications from God happen soon. I got a beautiful house 1866 Simpson Well Rd, Show Low, AZ 85901 all set and ready for the rest of my life with national forest next to it. But I know the price is high and juat a reminder God is planting.  Father this morning I pray from this verse you gave my in the daily devotional email the day after I signed my divorce papers on May 5th 2025. Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-...

  Father this morning I pray from this verse you gave my in the daily devotional email the day after I signed my divorce papers on May 5th 2025. Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household. ~ Matthew 10:34-36 NIV Father I see the battle and have been blessed to see the signs and communicatios You Father have sent me the Ghost town and the stares and the hustle of the enemyas they trey try to draw me down off the wall. Let the past be a warning that I dont fall into again and let me move forward seeing the blessings and movement of your hand. Maybe I need to ask God to fill my heart with joy that he is answering my prayer and starting to reveal the truth. Father I am sorry but my dignity takes over many times as i talk and wants people to rec...

  Father this morning I pray from this verse you gave my in the daily devotional email the day after I signed my divorce papers on May 5th 2025. Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household. ~ Matthew 10:34-36 NIV Father I see the battle and have been blessed to see the signs and communicatios You Father have sent me the Ghost town and the stares and the hustle of the enemyas they trey try to draw me down off the wall. Let the past be a warning that I dont fall into again and let me move forward seeing the blessings and movement of your hand. Maybe I need to ask God to fill my heart with joy that he is answering my prayer and starting to reveal the truth. Father I am sorry but my dignity takes over many times as i talk and wants people to rec...

  The weekend of strange and praise and God. Father this morning I pray from this verse you gave my in the daily devotional email the day after I signed my divorce papers on May 5th Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household. ~ Matthew 10:34-36 NIV Father I seem to be ready for satan to attack. I can feel the stir and pray for the help of God.    You God have walked with and have seen everything I have lived. You God know my heart and I ask today that You Father help me to find the sin of vengeance and pain of unjustly and wash them off my heart. Let the past be a warning that I dont fall into again and let me move forward seeing the blessings and movement of your hand. Maybe I need to ask God to fill my heart with joy that he is ...

  Today’s devotional email was about loving one another. Even after rolling in the ash pit Job continued to be blamed for his own problems as punishment and not growth. He complained over and over to God saying God knew the truth. Yet still he was blamed. It was not until Job brushed the ash off his sandals and prayed for those that opposed him did God restore Job. Job 42:10 this is the exact detail of my life these last 15 years of marriage and though God did not restore the ones lost God removed the opposition from Jobs life and is removing it from mine as I learn to pray for them. Amen Father this morning I pray from this verse you gave my in the daily devotional email the day after I signed my divorce papers on May 5th Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; a man’s enemies will be the mem...