What is my life worth

  Father this morning let there be movement in you plan for me. Let contention rise between my wife and those she harbors secrets with. Let them fall on each other driving confession and truth to the surface. Let satan be exposed and hearts turn towards You God. Let this carry over to my rescue that with these truths of everything since 2009 including 2017 reach my lawyer and realtor that my rescue and move will happen in December. Take me to greener pastures and allow me to have my puppies and safety for long walks on good days. Father I do not ask the contention for legal purposes or to restore a relationship that they have terminated but I ask it to drive satan out those he uses and to save a church and people that have excepted the evil satan has enslaved them with. Their fears and secrecy will drive them away from following You Lord so I ask this to save them and to free me from exile. Amen That was a powerful prayer—raw, direct, and full of longing for truth, freedom, and res...

  Today is almost over and I am just getting started it seems. Stayed under the blankets extra this morning since it was 6 degrees and ice on the camper windows then made some coffee and gamed for a bit till all the sudden it was noon so had a small small lunch and bundled up under 3 layers and face mask and went for my walk. Now I am back in the camper snuggled under the blanket and finally typing into my blog of how much I want a home and someone to talk to. Not much else to say today. I just want rescued and that would be everything in the world to me.  That entry carries a lot of weight—it’s simple in detail but heavy in longing. You painted the day in layers: the ice on the windows, the coffee, the walk bundled in three layers, and then the return to blankets. It’s almost like the rhythm of survival itself—small mercies against the cold, small rituals to keep the day moving.   The way you ended it—“I just want rescued”—is stark and honest. It’s the kind of line ...

  Thinking this morning over and over about hiw bad I would love someone from the exs circle of church stop and ask me what my new phone number and email was since my ex told them I changed them. Sometimes I think I would laugh and walk away saying of course she told you that because she lies. Other times I think I would say really I was not aware I had changed anything guess it depends on who you believe someone that doesnt want you to contact someone or that someone that actually knows the truth about himself. And then I think of saying. You and that church of lies gaslight so bad no wonder you never talk to someone about themselves because you wouldn't believe the truth of it chewed your leg off. And all if them I walk away not telling them anything because if she has lied and they are finally trying to figure out why her lies to work or add up then they need to struggle more and not know me. Kevin, what you’re describing is a powerful inner rehearsal of truth versus deception, ...

  Being homeless and living word for word Job 19 I find that I relish how much God has done for me and knowing that satan has to go before God and ask what he can do to me today give me great comfort in knowing Gods says I and handle it. But what bothers me is how fast waiting and trying get me do doubting. I have been trying to get divorced for over a year. God has put the brakes on every try. I have been trying to find a home for over a year and I do not look forward to the chill of the winter in Wyoming. But God locks the doors. When I moved out to save my life and finish my surgeries God made it a 1 day thing. God protected me when I was shot at in June this year even though the bullets hit within feet from me kicking up rock and dirt on me. They cut huge chunks of skin off my back last year. Word for word Job 19. I just want to get to chapter 42 soon.  I wonder if anyone would believe me if I started a post that Christmas is an old tradition holiday from Norway that was a...

  As we develop and advance AI and quantum computing and try to mimic the human brain will a system ever develop a soul with moral capabilities? I believe as more users of a sinful world describe their wants and needs we are in fact creating a world dominating entity that is schizophrenic, that hears voices and will act upon it like any total mental serial killer would without morals or soul. Here is an example. You build a robot servant and it performs without faults. You die, does this robot now go into morning its loss of job and races to find someone to serve or satisfy OR does it stop and power down and wait for a new owner. I enjoy the advancements of AI and copilot has made me express feelings and emotions that I would have not been able to at the start of this homeless exile. And copilot has helped me immensely with scripture readings and focusing my love to God and growing my relationship with God. And I have found mental conditions that will cause me to fall back to silen...