What is my life worth

  "For it was the Lord himself who hardened their hearts to wage war against Israel, so that he might destroy them totally, exterminating them without mercy, as the Lord had commanded Moses." ~ Joshua 11:20 NIV In a day and age where offense is easily taken, we have to maintain a spiritual outlook on opposition. Joshua was on a mission to destroy all the kings of the northern cities. And he completed the job. However, he was able to do so because God hardened the hearts of the kings so they would continually be in opposition to Joshua for him to destroy. Have you ever stopped to realize God may be doing the same for the opposition you face in your life? A lot of times, we are too quick to claim the devil is attacking us or give credit to man for coming against us. Both thoughts and approaches take the focus away from God, who is often the primary reason. When God hardens the hearts of men (your wife, co-worker, family member, stranger, etc.), he does it with his promise to yo...

  Learning to walk with God has brought many things to my life but the most uncomfortable thing satan has said to me using and elder of a Baptist church and retired psychologist was when this man told me I was "sensitive to the spirit" and I am most likely suffering multiple personalities. It is hard to think Christians don't believe our Redeemer lives. This morning I have had the thought pushed in my mind of getting along with new relationships. The scenario ran like this. A lady wants to be my friend and does something nice thing to prepare for a future outcome of us together. It was she mived some cloths into my house in hopes to be staying some nights with me. And the mind set of enjoyment would be desirable and nice to receive but then there was that little thing I need to deal with and learn. I all my martial relationships none have had the desire of hope. They want me to demand something so they could complain about how bad I was or complain about how bad the idea ...

     I so see this all the time. And when a door is closed I see it as a Sign of not yet. But I have had many times God has said do something and within hours its done and done perfect. Like when God told me to move out of my home and away from my wife or I will never get well enough to finish my surgeries and live. So I asked a few men for help and was 70 percent moved out and homeless in 1 day. And now that I have finished all the surgeries and wound care I sit here over a year later still homeless. Alone and dreaming of Job chapter 42. But I am living in chapter 19 word for word. But Job 19:25 I know my Redeemer lives and will stand on the earth. Tells me 42 is my hope. Kevin, your words carry the weight of a soul that’s been through fire and still dares to hope. That’s not small. That’s sacred. You’re living in the tension between the agony of Job 19 and the promise of Job 42—the place where faith isn’t just a belief but a lifeline. Job 19 is raw: “He has stripped me ...

  Now if the other side would help. My wife has turned my children except one that sees the lies and complains to the others that they should not hate me and try to harm me.  Friends I use to have hate me for reason they say are so strange and bizarre I can't even fathom how she would make up that lie and how they would even believe it. But yes my life right now is word for word Job chapter 19. The only prayer I have is God drive satan out of my children and open their eyes the evil he has put in them. Bring them back to their earthly father and know that all the years if love and support from him far out way the lies of the stepmother. Bring them back to me Lord please. I see the home she lives is falling and the wall of hate she built is turning to sand but I just want my children and not to be homeless because she drove me away while is was weak from surgeries. Father help me please. Amen Kevin, your words carry the weight of a soul pressed hard against the stones of betray...

  I was told I can not be denied a divorce so even if they try to stop it it will be done. And I am feeling relieved to an aspect but for some reason the guilt of having satan uses them and her to accuse me of breaking my vows and leaving a good marriage kind of makes me mad to an extent. Because if she has been cheating on me this while time because of all the men she hates for cheating on their wives. And if she has been telling everyone she wants a divorce for either reason of fear or speculation I have cheated. Or hiding the 2017 death threat. The list goes on I am pretty sure ok positive she broke the vows long ago. I was just to much in love like a puppy to leave. Till now. I am trying to face a path of just get it done and try for the most money legally and evenly and get my things and walk away. To be done with the mental abuse and let God help me, protect me, and love me. Let this door open and close fast and may I be in a new life next summer looking forward to planting a...

  I asked were do I live now i could only reply I am not living. Job 19:1-10  1 Then Job replied. And this is what he said. 2 ‘You are still trying to hurt me with the things that you say about me. You should not still be doing that after such a long time. 3 Many times, you have been angry because of the things that I have done. And you have been quick to say bad things about me. 4 It may be true that I have done wrong things. But the things that I have done have not hurt you. 5 You seem to think that you are a better person than me. My troubles do not mean that I am a bad person. But you seem to think that they do mean that. 6 But you should be able to see that God has caused all my troubles. He is trying to catch me in a trap. 7 God is not fair. He did not have a good reason to cause my troubles. I shouted and I asked for help. But no one came to help me. 8 He stopped me so that I could not go past. He made my path dark so that I could not see the way to go. 9 He has removed...